Saturday, December 21, 2013

The past has passed

You didn't treat me the way I deserved when you had me
I was all yours and made that clear to see
So why do you now send me "I am thinking of you" messages to my phone
I didn't hear from you in my months of healing alone
But when I decide to move on and am happy with another, you now can't live without me
Our parting was what we agreed
And what was truly best 
My loyalty you now want to test 
But you know I am loyal to the one I am with, so why do you think you can change my mind
Thinking I am having any desires to go back in time 
Repeating our past is not something I want to return to
My life is happier without you
I am sorry if that has you missing what was real
Love for you my heart no longer feels
It's time to accept that what we had is long gone
You must now move on
Because I have and nothing you can say or do can change my feelings for you
And any devising plans you can possibly construe
Your stalker tendencies are becoming old
So please remove any love for me that your heart still holds
These words to you will be my last
I am leaving the past in the past

Disillusioned Love

I gave him my heart, which included all of me
He claimed his soul only belonged to me
Pretended to be only mine
That his body was all mine
But only came around when he had time
And my body was all of our time
No quality time he made time for
He always had more important things he made his time for
I wasn't a priority to him
I wasn't as important to him
As he tried to make me believe 
Spending moments in bed holding onto what he wanted me to believe 
Attention only paid through texts and phone calls
But he was consistent and for him my body still calls
Because for me, he was my one and only 
But for him, I wasn't his only
He had too many others to tend to
My needs weren't as important for him to cater to
My heart he only pretended to love
When in reality my body was his love
My heart was shattered in pieces
When his girl at home crushed each and every piece
Of hope I had for me and him
The dreams of happily ever after with just me and him 
The lies he fed to my vulnerability, I allowed 
He wasn't the only to blame because his false love, I allowed
Disregarding all the signs that were clear
He showed me who he was but now my fogged glass of vision was now clear
He promised he would never hurt me like that
He lied and say he loved me more than that
Even after the truth was revealed, he still tried to convince me that his love was real
Having me question fake from real
To clear my confusion I had to leave him alone
And pick up the smashed and broken piece of me, all alone