I have lost my motivation
My need for a standing ovation
Its hard to write when things are down
And even harder to reverse this frown
Everything is hitting me all at once
Piling up for months
My faith is constantly being tested
My mind is restless
Confusion invades
Scattered thoughts persuade
A strong need to release
And again find that inner peace
Rebuking these constant attacks
Forcing my motivation back
Well I am going to try to read two of my pieces tonight. Trying so hard to get over my stage frieght. I am going to read "Whisper" and "Real" that have been recently posted. Please pray that I can get through this..this time
Soft whispers in my ear
Ignoring the sounds that I hear
Heading in the direction I feel
Forgetting nightly to kneel
Stressing because nothing is going as planned
And I don't understand
Not happy with the person I became
But still I don't hear Him calling my name
Daily He makes his presence known
The inevitable postponed
Until I had no choice but to turn to Him
Bringing light to what was once dim
Overwhelming feelings
Of an inner healing
Letting go of personal expectations
No longer worrying about complications
My path is now clear
Allowing His word to adhere
In His joy I rejoice
Reconizing His voice
A wordsmith left speechless
Unable to capture the intensity of feelings felt
No rythmn can display the beating of my heart
The depths of this love no one can envision
Justice not conveyed in the simplicity of words
I love from the core of my soul,
With everything in me
Freely given yet sometimes stolen,
At times my mind and heart don't agree
I haven't always made smart choices,
Giving my love to those that didn't deserve
Ignoring the signs and inner voices,
Even went years with my love on reserve
Ran from true love staring me in the face,
Scared to again be hurt
Although my heart was still beating at a rapid pace,
My one and only I chose to dessert
But without his love I couldn't breathe,
Feeling totally empty and alone
As much as I denied true love was already concieved,
Chill bumps formed from just his tone
My whole heart is only his to claim,
All the love inside that I have to give
Since the day we met I have never been the same,
That love we once shared I want to relive
