Saturday, August 31, 2013

Vengeful Envy

The wind whispered secrets in my ear of truths and falsies 
Spread further than the eyes could see
Beneath so-called friendships were deceiving lies all the while smiling in my face
Sucking away the air from my personal space
Vultures hovering over each word and sentence thinking of ways to construe
Attempting to take away joys and life with untruths
Little did they know their evil intentions were recognized for exactly what they were
Resistance made the pot difficult to stir
Sticking their noses in business that they had no right to assume
Victory prevailed never taking flight to consume
Privacy no longer being private, publicity became a dark shadow luring in defiance 
But in the end the real story became truths reliance
While side chatter will always continue
An arms lengths distance will now ensue
Nothing or no one can take the words from my heart and sound from my lips
It's just now my mind is stronger than hateful grips
I now can see the real from the fake
And my happiness will never again be at stake
No one has the power to take what's truly mine
In my thoughts my secrets are now confined
Lessons learned reserving my trust
True love has more strength than envy and lust
I can forgive but never forget so save any apologies or pleads
Vengeance in the end has no choice but to concede

Saturday, August 10, 2013

Beautiful Silence

Just laying here in your arms I feel your soul connected to mine
Tingly sensations run up and down my spine
As I lie on your shoulder and caress your chest, each inch of your skin I kiss
Each second of our love making over and over I reminisce
Words not needed because each emotion is being felt and our eyes tell no lies
As each sunset’s, in you my sun rises
Our lips connect in ways that defy language with our own interpretations
Physical actions create cosmic salutations
Telepathically speaking our own heartfelt dialect
Communicating directly indirect
Brushing my hair to the side leaving kissed stained cheeks
In unidentified tongues our passion speaks
Imperfect perfections of moon gliding and spiritual dances
Right side up but yet upside down my heart and mind collectively enhances
I feel a war of spiritual revolution
Each nerve ending rejoices in electrocution
Brainwaves create inner galactic sound waves of our rhythmic harmony
Melodically script writing love-filled symphonies
Star surfing among constellations
With destiny being our destination
Inside out and outside in I feel you
As stained glass I see only you through
Feeding off the words unspoken yet spoken loud and clear
Our hearts so naturally cohered
Beyond explanation
Loves diagnosis without question or examinations
Flowing through each other as a river of inner commotion
Mixing pheromone ingredients of our unique love potion
Addiction remedies to a fiend’s lust
Beyond words being discussed
Lavishing in assurance of a non-verbal communicated alliance
Our souls speaking our beautiful silence

Insane Sanity

All I am asking for is a break
Time to catch my breath and stand up after I fall
Not enough being deposited, but banks still continue to take
Catching up just to fall behind constantly overdrawn and backed up
against the wall
If it’s going to happen, it’s surely going to happen to me
I try to smile regardless but at night when I am alone the tears stream
Feeling as if the waves are drowning me in a dead sea
My pride holds me back and erases my dreams
The weight I carry all by myself gets so heavy that I feel as if I just can’t go on
If it’s not one thing, it’s another…when does it end
I never expected life to be easy but I don’t even have those to depend upon
Not even asking to be rescued but a shoulder to cry on and ears to comprehend
Would make my load just a bit lighter and able to manage
I wouldn’t feel so alone
And always at a disadvantage
Down the drain, my sanity forms into a cyclone landing me dead center
in the drop zone
Not sure how much longer I can maintain
Hanging onto the edge of the cliff contemplating the jump
Just wanting to relieve this pain
Breaking finger nails and drawing blood trying to scrape out of this slump
Mind on overload analyzing different options that would draw different
My tunnel is filled with darkness and no shadows of light seep through
Tricks played on my conscious forming insane delusions
Different circumstances with results seeming like déjà vu
My eyes reveal deep sadness but my smile distracts focus
Daily forcing away negative thoughts attempting to only see positive displays
Adjusting my lenses to refocus
It’s just not as easy on some days
And I allow myself to be consumed
To feel every emotion in this process
And then some days I am numb and keep my pain entombed
Every once in awhile mental relief comes and I make progress
But I have learned to fake inner happiness so often that I can at
times forget as well
Then around the next corner I get slammed in the face
My thoughts captured and can’t help but dwell
This repeating cycle I continue to retrace
I must break free and find my mind some peace
Learning to let go even though painlessly isn’t always the case
But I must stop worrying and release
And this negative energy erase
Discover what happiness truly feels like
Regaining spiritual vanity
Ending my personal strike
With my battle against insane sanity