RIP Mike-Guest Poet Tanaesha Leak

RIP Mike!  I cant believe its been a year since you left us :(

Good Morning All!  I am posting this in memory of Michael Jackson.  The two poems below my daughter wrote last year about Mike.  I hope that everyone has a safe and blessed weekend!

Now I Realize

I know at first I seen you as such a bad person

Because thats the picture people painted in my head

So before you left I never really knew you and I never really cared

I just went by what people said

And now that you are gone

I realize your greatness

I realize your perfection

I realize your innocence

I realize your shyness

I realize that you cared for others

I realize that you had a heart

And I realize that deep down inside you were hurting

You were hurting because they made you seem as such a bad person

They made you paranoid about the way you looked

They took your pride

They took your childhood

And your manhood

They took away the ability for you to sleep at night

They made you into a person you were not

And someone you could never become

And at the end they were never happy

You told them to leave you alone

But they never listened

And now I realize how sweet of a person you were

Hopefully now they will leave you alone

You've Shown Me

You've shown me how to not be selfish

You've shown me that the world needs healing

You've shown me how to love outside of myself

You've shown me that prejudice is ignorance

You've shown me that they dont really care about us

You've shown me that you should never come second to none

You've shown me that sharing is the key to life

You've shown me how to respect someone even if you dont like them

You've shown me how to be a lover and not a fighter

You've shown me that not everyone is what they seem

You've shown me that through everything you are not alone

You've shown me all of this through your music

You've shown me a lot and we never personally met

By Tanaesha Leak

Why I? & Behind Closed Doors-Guest Poet-Tanaesha

Good Morning All!  TGIF!!!!!  These are the poems that my daughter wrote that I promised yesterday(FYI she will only be 17 June 29th, so this is words from a young heart).  She told me not to post Behind Closed Doors because its really personal to her, but I didnt listen...That poem speaks to me as I am sure speaks to everyone else as well.  We have ALL been there...And can relate...

Why I

Solid calls
Days gone
Months passed
Wondering why
Hearts break
People cry
People lie
People cheat
But why do
People love
People care
Or some people dont even dare
No solid calls
Days gone
Months passed
And I still wonder
Why I


Behind Closed Doors

In public
I show no signs of sadness
With my friends I am the happiest
I'm silly and goofy
I stand tall and brave
As if I am over you
Yes, it has been months

But behind closed doors
I still cry
Not even shy
To show the emotions inside
That I dare not hide

Behind closed doors
I do still miss you
Thinking of you constantly
Every thought of you driving me crazy
Cant push away this feeling of loneliness

Behind closed doors
I listen to songs that make me cry
Torturing myself with every word
I think I just need to move on
People telling me that your probaly
Not even thinking about me anymore

But behind closed doors
I just wanna know why
Why do I still think of you
Why is it do hard
For me to let you go
Why do I still cry
Why do I
Still love you
Behind closed doors

Both Poems Were Written By: Tanaesha Leak

Thoughts-Guest Poet Tanaesha Leak

Here are a few of my daughters fresh poems written within the last two weeks that I thought I would share.  She does have my account passwords and log in info and does read your comments :)  Come on now and give my baby some confidence so maybe one day she will create her own blog....But other than my posting her poetry and my eyes, NO ONE else has EVER read her poetry...She refuses to share because she is very shy...So come on and tell my baby what you really think of her words :)

Thoughts

Cloudy night
Rain falling from the sky
Kinda dark outside
Lights set dim
All I can do is think of him
Bringing smiles to my face
Thoughts of him brightens up my day even then
He was the Prince to my Cinderella story
Cant remember one bad memory
Until the very end
Choas overthrowing my thoughts
Afraid to step foot to him again

Emotionally Confused Syndrome

I am emotionally confused
Is it my heart that is bruised
So many thoughts flowing through my head
Just want to fall asleep in my bed
Dodging the craziness ahead
But tears I will not shed
These issues are scaring me
Emotions that I dare not to see
To my confusion there is no key
Why wont these problems let me be
Can I put this to an end
Why to me it repeatidly sends
To my heart there is no kin
In my mind this is a trend
Having this Emotionally Confused Syndrome

Wait & See

Shallow days
Dark nights
Storming and raining
Hurting and crying
All over the world
But my heart I still depend on
To move me towards the light
The dark and storm I fear
But I shall move forward
Eventhough it feels like it
My life is not completely over
You have not totally crushed my heart
It still beats
I dont need you
Or your so called "love"
But still I cant wait to hate you
And break through these emotional changes
But now when I hear your name
I think to myself, "What a waste of time"
But when I see your face
My heart stops
What a shame
But even through my heart is torn
I will move on
And you will see
How much better of a person
I can be
Without you
And the next will heal
And put back together
What your love has broken
Just wait and see...

By Tanaesha Lashaye Leak

Do I Love You?-My Daughters Poetry

Do I Love You?

Do I love you?

I dont know

Do I love you?

I'm so confused

I have never been in love

So how would I know?

This feelin' I have for you

I cant explain and cant let go

No one else can come close

When I'm with you I get so quiet,

I dont even know why

Maybe its because you take my breathe away

The second I leave you,

I get so confused

When we seem to part and you are out of my sight

I start to miss you

When I talk to you on the phone,

Your voice makes me melt

The sad part is that officially your not even mine

But I could care less about them other girls

They mean nothing to me

I've known you for so long, almost all my life

I should be over this feelin' that I feel for you

But I'm not, it just gets stronger

And I am scared

I'm scared to open up to you

Cuz I'm scared to love

But most importantly I am scared to love you

And I dont know why

I know you told me you would never do me wrong

And thats what I am scared of

I am scared because I know you would never hurt me

That terrifies me

Do I love you?

I'm not sure

Do I love you?

I think I do

But now the question is how do I show you?

And what would you think?

Shadows of You

I sit and wait by the phone,

Day and night

Just to hear your special ringtone,

That I will never recieve

I miss your company

Can we atleast be friends?

Where is your sympathy?

Is it even there?

I still hear your voice in my head

As I sit and lay in my bed,

The same place where, before

Many messages from you were read

Shadows of you raoming around in my head

I dont want you back

I just want your friendship

Which is what we lack

Like we had before

I sometimes wish I could

Go back in the past

And make our relationship last

But until then

Shadows of you are roaming around in my head

By: Tanaesha Leak

Tanae`sha Lashaye-My Daughters Poetry

 

Why

I dont know why the sky is blue, or even why the grass is green

Makes me wonder is this more than what it seems

I dont know why summer starts in June

Or why winter comes too soon

Even makes me wonder at night why is it only half of the moon

So tell me why do people fall in love

And let their heart sore above

Leaving it vulnerable and open

So that without knowing, it could be easily broken

Makes me wonder why it is so easy to fall in love

But so hard to restore your heart after being broken

***These two are dedicated to Michael Jackson :)  Even the one above has a few of Mikes lines if you can recognize his words...***

Now I Realize

I know at first I seen you as such a bad person

Because thats the picture people painted in my head

So before you left I never really knew you and I never really cared

I just went by what people said

And now that you are gone

I realize your greatness

I realize your perfection

I realize your innocence

I realize your shyness

I realize that you cared for others

I realize that you had a heart

And I realize that deep down inside you were hurting

You were hurting because they made you seem as such a bad person

They made you paranoid about the way you looked

They took your pride

They took your childhood

And your manhood

They took away the ability for you to sleep at night

They made you into a person you were not

And someone you could never become

And at the end they were never happy

You told them to leave you alone

But they never listened

And now I realize how sweet of a person you were

Hopefully now they will leave you alone

You've Shown Me

You've shown me how to not be so selfish

You've shown me that the world needs healing

You've shown me how to love outside of myself

You've shown me that prejudice is ignorance

You've shown me that they dont really care about us

You've shown me that you should never come second to none

You've shown me that sharing is the key to life

You've shown me how to respect someone even if you dont like them

You've shown me how to be a lover not a fighter

You've shown me that not everyone is what they seem

You've shown me that through everything your are not alone

You've shown me all this

Through your music, your walk and your talk

You've shown me alot and we never personally met

By Tanaesha Leak