Despite

We rise up just to fall back down

Daily trying our best not to drown

Having that one that’s by your side

Holding you tight through this roller coaster ride

When life knocks you from every angle thought of

Providing strength and joy only given through His love

Makes every second of every day worth the fight

Finding true peace and happiness despite

Good Morning All!  I just wanted to remind everyone, that despite it ALL...He will carry you when you cannot walk...I wanted to do a sensual, sexy piece today because that is kinda how I am feeling...But these words spilled through my pen...So an inspirational day it is :) enjoy!

Ok, I did a quick name change of this blog...I got tired of "Inside Jstar's Head" because its not technically true...My words are not even a thought...They flow directly from my heart onto paper...With no reason or rhyme at times...or even understanding...So until I come up with something catchy...Poetically Jstar it is :)

Fairytales

Fairytales do not truly exist
Although sleeping beauty is awaiting to be kissed
Prince Charming will indeed disappoint
Hopes and dreams will of course disjoint
But that’s the realities of life
Take comfort in promises of the afterlife
There is happiness that can only be found within
Don’t allow the issues of the world to get under your skin
God can release your burdens and take all your pain
As well as give you the strength to sustain
This God-given joy cannot be taken unless you allow
Enjoy the here and now
And everything else will fall in its rightful place
Once you love you and give God control
You will feel peace in your soul
Remain smiling when your train derails
Knowing life is never a fairytale

Grateful

I am grateful for my struggles because they have made me stronger
Even if that means I have to struggle a little longer

I am grateful because I have made it this far even if my steps are gradual
My goals I keep up front and center in my visual

I am grateful for all of my pain and heartaches because they have made me wiser
I now seek God for guidance as my only advisor

I am grateful for my tears and depression because they have made me thankful
And appreciative of the peace in my heart that has made me truly joyful

I am grateful for the love my daughters have shown
And my downfalls are lessons learned for not me alone


I am grateful for Gods continuous mercy and grace
Even when my actions were displaced

I am grateful for each and every blessing I have been given
And that my sins with prayer are forgiven

I am grateful for each day I awake
Having another chance to correct my mistakes

Good Morning All!  This was inspired by todays inspirational morning message from Steve Harvey this morning. Its a reminder to me that no matter what, I have reasons to be grateful...From the good to the bad...Because in the end, everything has a purpose....In that pains and hurt, we need to look harder to find the true blessing...

Thank You-Prayer

Thank You-Prayer

Thank you Lord for continously blessing our lives

Thank you for opening our eyes

To your promises and guarantees

Thank you for putting our troubles and worries at ease

Please give us strength to bear adversities

Fill us with the Word that accompanies

Your love and grace

Our hunger for your knowledge embraced

Thirst for your spirit overcomes

Guiding us to being the best we can become

Teaching us your Word as it empowers

Your glory and love continuously showers

Cleansing away our sins

Continue to walk with us as our journey begins

Help us overcome the devils constant attack

Fill us with the confidence we currently lack

Thank you again Lord for always having our back

Thank you for keeping our lives on track

Even when we thought we didnt have the strength to continue

Thank you for your love that always renews

Thank you Lord, Thank you

In Jesus name Amen

Good Morning All! Since it is Good Friday, I thought this would be fitting to repost...I just want to thank Jesus for his sacrafice so that we could be free! I hope everyone has a safe and blessed holiday!

Change

Change

My life is going through a major change

Focus and priorities are being rearranged

Personally and professionally revamping majorly

In His wisdom I feed savorly

Praising God for these blessings coming my way

Learning the values of obedience each day

Strong enough to withstand the devils attacks

My faith wont allow me to feel the impact

Instead I relish in His peace

Knowing all the fires will soon cease

Confident that everything will work out

And I will remain standing throughout

My highest honor is serving

After all my struggles in this change I feel deserving

Freeing Darkness

Freeing Darkness

Tasting the salt of the rain

Caused by past pains

Crippling and unable to move on

Wishing the hurt was gone

Cycles continuously repeating

Energy depleting

Tired of the nightmares awakening

Scars further deepening

Unable to trust another

Not able to open up to any other

Secluded and suffering with images

From love and feelings completely distances

Tried every other avenue

But further soul destruction ensued

Until I knelt on bended knee

And asked Him to part my Red Sea

To escape my hell on earth

He led me out of darkness to a rebirth

Freeing my heart and soul

My inner bleeding healed and consoled

Giving me testimonies to recite

Carrying me out of darkness into His light

His Answer

His Answer

I have so many things going and don’t know which way to turn

Making the right decision is my main concern

Which doors need to be opened and which ones needs to be closed

I pray for my eyes to see all that is being disclosed

In seclusion I spend my time awaiting the correct answer

Where proper decisions will lead my life to an enhancer

This time is teaching me the values of patience

Showing me where my life needs maintenance

As I prepare my life toward His will

My soul He continuously refills

Giving me what I need to maintain

Knowledge through His Word, I ascertain

Giving me inner peace and confidence

Knowing behind each of my actions there is a consequence

Not falling trap to the chaos that surrounds me

In all the answers I seek, resting assure in His guarantee

Good Morning All! I just finished this poem a few mins ago.  I am slowly working my way back into my writing grove. This poem above I think is the reason I went unable to write for so long. Having soo much on my mind, not wanting to speak until I got peace with all that is on my plate.  People are coming at me left and right, to the point I don't know which way to turn.  I have spent a lot of time alone with my thoughts.  Although I still have no resolution, I am learning to be patient and await His guidance.  Allowing things to work out on their own, as hard as that truly is.  I hope that you get peace and patience from this poem, just as I did!

Thank You-Prayer

Thank you Lord for continously blessing our lives
Thank you for opening our eyes
To your promises and guarantees
Thank you for putting our troubles and worries at ease
Please give us strength to bear adversities
Fill us with the Word that accompanies
Your love and grace
Our hunger for your knowledge embraced
Thirst for your spirit overcomes
Guiding us to being the best we can become
Teaching us your Word as it empowers
Your glory and love continuously showers
Cleansing away our sins
Continue to walk with us as our journey begins
Help us overcome the devils constant attack
Fill us with the confidence we currently lack
Thank you again Lord for always having our back
Thank you for keeping our lives on track
Even when we thought we didnt have the strength to continue
Thank you for your love that always renews
Thank you Lord, Thank you
In Jesus name Amen

Good Morning All! this is a repost but I thought this had to be said today. I have a lot to be thankful for! I went on an interview last week for a promotion at my job, I am thanking God in advance and speaking it into exsistence! God KNOWS I need this! My baby is getting ready to go to college in the fall! And this would be a very nice pay increase, the most money than I have ever made as of yet.  I hope everyone is doing well!

Excuses

Excuses

Why do we make excuses for why we can't obey

This is when our hearts are led astray

Falling into evil temptations

Ignoring His expectations

Then blame Him for not progressing

Instead of on our knees confessing

Wondering why our problems are not being alleviated

But the route He mapped we deviated

We go to church and hear the Word

But don't truthfully understand what we heard

We take what we want to hear

But our efforts are not sincere

How can you love Him with half of our heart

Without learning His Word that He is attempting to impart

Build a true relationship with Him

Allowing Him to be the only one you depend

He will give you the strength to make it through

Your spirit He will renew

You will be able to feel His presence within

And allow your walk with Him to truly begin

Exodus 3:10-12 NIV
10-"...So now, go I am sending you to Pharaoh to bring my people the Israelites out of Egypt."
11-But Moses said to God, "Who am I, that I should go to Pharaoh and bring the Israelites out of Egypt?
12-And God said, "I will be with you. And this will be the sign to you that it is I who have sent you..."

Exodus 4:1 NIV
1-Moses answered, "What if they do not believe me or listen to me and say, 'The Lord did not appear to you'?"

Exodus 4:11-13 NIV
11-The Lord said to him, "Who gave man his mouth? Who makes him deaf or mute? Who gives him sight or makes him blind? Is it not I, the Lord?
12-Now go; I will help you speak and will teach you what to say."
13-But Moses said, "O Lord, please send someone else to do it."

See how Moses made exuses to not obey God's instructions!!!! We doubt ourselves or dont want to stand up in His name, we are ashamed and deny him....Just as Peter denied Him after Jesus was arrested prior to Him being crucified, Peter denied Him three times...

John 18:17-18 NIV
17-"You are not one of his disciples, are you?" the girl at the door asked Peter. He replied, "I am not."
18-It was cold, and the servants and officials stood around a fire they had made to keep warm. Peter also standing with them, warming himself.

Making exuses is basically denying God, in His eyes...Yes, we are sinners...and are not perfect, but God knows whats in our hearts and he knows if we are truly trying to please Him...Dont make exuses...Just do it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Good Morning All! I am reposting this for a reason today. I forgot and missed my first DiscipleshipII class. I fell into temptation. I had a long day at work and went home and had a couple of glasses of wine. When my teacher called, I could have went if I hadnt drank the wine. I felt bad beyond measure. It made me think...If I hadnt missed church on Sunday, I may have remembered. So now, all I can do is ask Him forgiveness and not allow anything else to come in between my classes and the bonding with Him! I WILL do my homework, and be in class next week! No excuses...


I hope that everyone has a great weekend!

His Light

His Light

When the clouds are too thick to see the light

Keep your goals in sight

Be prepared to trip and fall for your vision is not yet clear

Find that strength to persevere

No matter what road blocks are in the way

In the good and the bad, dont forget to kneel before Him and pray

Be thankful for where life has brought you thus far

Even when the lessons learned leave scars

Stop making wishes over a four leaf clover

For it aint over, until God says its over

He will provide all that you require

And not always everything you desire

Have faith that it will all work out in the end

Just the way He intends

Allow His love in your heart to reside

His light is our constant guide

Good Morning All! Sorry for reposting yet again...But since I havent written anything fresh, this poem spoke to me today. I went through a rough patch recently, and He worked things out above and beyond, as always. So right now I am so grateful and praising His name!

I just got a mini laptop, so I can do some writing on. I started editing one of my novels I havent touched in years last night. Since we have a three day weekend, I promise to have some fresh poetry to post  next week. My mental state is in a place now, where I can release. I am unable to write when I am going through the situation, I usualy write about it after, as a closure thing for me....I am ready to do so now....

God is GOOD...ALL the time

Hello ALL! I know I have been missing in action lately....A lot has been going on with me, but it is ALL working out just the way its supposed to...Opening doors I didnt know was even possible...I am posting today to remind everyone that God is GOOD ALL the time!!! Be thankful of WHATEVER situation you are in....Praise His name...He WILL see you through...whatever situation...Dont allow people, this world and situations to get in the way of YOUR God given joy!

I hope that everyone has a blessed day today! I promise to write really really soon!

Imperfections

Tired of constantly stressing

So with my pen I am confessing

My sins and wrong turns

Praying for guidance to return

Allowing life to take my joy

Disconnection notices starting to annoy

Causing disruption within my spirit

Pain so overwhelming trying not to feel it

Knowing He IS going to work it out

In that having no doubt

Just tired of struggling

Daily juggling

Amongst this madness

I must push through this sadness

And give my stresses to Him

The only one I can always depend

To carry me through any storm

Putting my life in His hands to transform

Realizing stressing was useless

Making my efforts fruitless

Refocusing my direction

Accepting life’s imperfections

Today

I chose this particular pic because its a view I am used to, sunrise in the DC metro area...And I am thankful each day I see this image...I actually pass the monument on my way toand from work :)

Today

Here one day, gone the next

It’s the time in between to reflect

Making each day joyous and fulfilling

Be open and willing

To take on each obstacle that comes our way

Not being lead astray

Cherish love in totality

Make happiness a reality

Stop wasting moments in sorrow

Look forward to tomorrow

For it is never promised

Let the beauty of today not be dismissed

Good Morning All! This is yet another reminder that we need to enjoy what is in front of us...today and stop relying on 2morrow...I JUST got some good news(As I was typing)...They are able to do the procedure...Its really risky and that terrifies me...But its a chance...So I am feeling a sense of relief right now eventhough he still has a long road ahead...I will be right there with him, battling this, encouring him...

Precious Life

Monet-Giverny

Precious Life

Life is so precious

It is something that should never be neglected

Savor each moment

As it is your last momentum

Every second that is past

Treat is as your last

Cherish time spent

Everything has something to represent

Take time and notice the small things

And see what it brings

Once the time is gone

There is no recalling

Always remember as you climb

God only gives us one lifetime

 

Thank You-Prayer

Dear God,

Thank you Lord for continuously blessing our lives

Thank you for opening our eyes

To your promises and guarantees

Thank you for putting our troubles and worries at ease

Please give us strength to bear adversities

Fill us with the Word that accompanies

Your love and grace

Our hunger for your knowledge embraced

Thirst for your spirit overcomes

Guiding us to being the best we can become

Teaching us your Word as it empowers

Your glory and love continuously showers

Cleansing away our sins

Continue to walk with us as our journey begins

Help us overcome the devils constant attack

Fill us with the confidence we currently lack

Thank you again Lord for always having our back

Thank you for keeping our lives on track

Even when we thought we didn’t have the strength to continue

Thank you for your love that always renews

Thank you Lord, Thank you

In Jesus name, Amen

 

Free Falling

Free Falling

Sick and tired of stressing

Constantly assessing

Damage already done

And all that’s left undone

Wondering how I am going to make it

Not understanding how the pieces will to fit

Letting go

Even though the debts are still owed

Having faith that He WILL provide

Closing my eyes and opening my arms out wide

Feeling assurance in His calling

Letting completely go and free falling

 

Faith

Faith

Why do we worry and stress

Instead of awaiting God to bless

We make choices that have consequences

Blaming Him for our mistakes is our greatest offense

Why do we fight against His will

Instead of trusting His Word to instill

Faith that everything will work out just as it’s supposed to

And not always when and how we want it to

We need to learn how to let go

And realize that He is the One that is in control

All He asks for is our love and obedience

Pray at the altar with faith and confidence

Live out our purpose here in this life

And He guarantees us eternal life

With inner peace and unconditional love

Just build a personal relationship with God above

Speak

Speak

Dear Lord,

I put my life into your hands

Even if I don't understand

Only you know what's best for me

And with faith my heart agrees

I am at a crossroad in my life

Two men want me to be thier wife

And I am not sure which way to turn

Your guidance I yearn

My financial situation is not quite right

I am in desperate need of your insight

I want to be able to provide

At home where my children reside

I desire to be the best person I can be

And live my future as you foresee

Please shine your light

And give me a line of sight

Now I pray and listen for your voice

In your name I rejoice

I know you will give me all I seek

To my heart you speak

 

His Battle

His Battle

Let go and your joy will be complete

Dont just fall in defeat

Your troubles make you stronger

Dont hold onto the guilt any longer

Repent your sins

And your peace will begin

Never give up hope

Whatever it is, you CAN cope

Set your mind at ease

Dont question God's expertise

Stay in fear of His reign

Allow His glory to attain

And His knowledge to excite

Realize that its just not your battle to fight

This is a repost...I needed this reminder today...I hope that everyone has a great weekend.  I will be back on Tuesday...

Strength

Good Morning All!  I am reposting this poem because I have been neglecting everyone from my poetry long enough.  I couldnt come up with anything, so I am resharing this one...I am still not feeling good at all.  I have a feeling that I am getting the flu :(  Maybe from moving and the fact that my air condition works in my new place....Before the air didnt work in the back two bedrooms...I guess after two years of living without air I have to get used to it again...Plus its that time of year for my sinus's to act up :(  Last night I kept waking up in cold sweats then waking up freezing...And I have been wide awake since 3am...I am not really sure when I wrote this one but I suspect earlier this year....This fits with the mood that I am in right now...I have been through hell and back...literally...and my world is changing around me (for the good) and I am scared...terrified to fail again...But I reflect of what all that I have overcame thus far and my strength reminds me that its all going to work out...

Strength

My world is flipping upside down
But I see the pieces of the puzzle falling into place
Listening to the sounds
Of your voice and recognizing your face
Leading me through the fires
Protecting me from harm
No longer living through desires
Not falling for the devils charm
Finding strength within
That I never felt before
You are the only one I can depend
To open closed doors
I never thought possible
Each day no matter the circumstance, I praise your name
And you show miracles that were once impossible
Now, my life will never be the same



And these two ladies right here are the source of my strength....My reason for breathing...The ARE my everything...