Thursday, December 30, 2010


You tried to take me, my soul
Until I learned to gain control
You hurt me in ways I couldn’t let go
Locking my pain inside so no one would know
Desperately wanting my father’s love
Realizing my Father is the man above
Looking for love in the wrong places
Pushing past the hurt of many different faces
Made mistakes I can’t take back
Now focused on getting my life on track
Releasing the flash backs and nightmares
That haunted when no one cared
Finding and truly loving me
All that pain and hurt finally freed

Tuesday, December 28, 2010


Drips dropping slowly
Forming a knowing
Of obstacles and triumphs
In my throat formed a lump
Knowing what to do
Confidence seeping through
Finding my way in this place called life
Made amends with all this so called strife
Letting go of inhibitions
Making better decisions
My life I reclaim
To higher heights I aim

Thursday, December 16, 2010



Not falling for your lies
Revealing your disguise

Elated I didn’t release my heart to you
Bigger and better opportunities I pursue

I deserve more respect than you have given
But all is forgiven

Because it’s not my place to judge
It’s not even worth me holding a grudge

I am not that same person anymore
No longer making the same mistakes as before

The difference is that I love and respect me now
Demanding what I deserve, I vow

Not wasting time in sorrow
Looking forward to a brighter tomorrow

Not even worthy of shedding a tear
When I know my heart is sincere

No longer giving to the undeserved
Especially when it’s unearned

No longer serving a purpose, cutting off all ties
Seeing truth beyond blatant falsies and deceit


Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Double Crossed

Double Crossed

You were the one I thought I’d spend my life with
But our “happily ever after” was a myth

I thought I knew you, everything about you
But your lies have been seen through

It hurts because above all else you were my best friend
That one person I could always depend

Now our friendship must cease
Leaving my broken heart in one piece

But at least now I know the truth
And am sure of what’s it’s my view

Now it’s time to let go and move on
My love is now withdrawn

Because you were never worthy of me
Not worthy to be the trustee

Of my heart and all that entails
And all of that would have unveiled

I guess it’s just you’re loss
With your plans to double cross


Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Stolen Kisses

Stolen Kisses

We see each other in passing routinely
Sneaking a peak here and there
So very discreetly
Words unspoken in midair
When the elevator doors closed
He reached in and kissed my lips
Tongues danced like they were composed
With eyes closed like an eclipse
Tensions mounted as my heart skipped a beat
Not wanting it to end
As the doors opened we tried to play discreet
But inside we couldn’t pretend
This was not long awaited
The longing could not dismiss
Lips left much elated
Until the next time of stolen kisses

Monday, December 13, 2010



Snowflakes decorating the sky
Winter chills brisk bite
Loneliness hard to deny
That person holding me through the night
Loving me to no end
Body heat rising
Fluids mixing to the perfect blend
Positions continuously revising
Defining ecstasy with chemistry untamed
Arising eruptions unable to conceal
Heart lustfully inflamed
My dreams so alive, almost surreal

Friday, December 10, 2010


Dali Salvador

Intrigued by the depths of you
Got me wondering if I should pursue

Curiosity is getting the best of me
Putting myself out there with no guarantee

I am feeling your sexy style
Hopeful you are worthwhile

Not looking for anything serious
Loving the mysterious

Wanting to know what it takes to make you smile
Levels of you trying to compile

Piecing together the real you
Asking myself if you are true

I have enjoyed time spent
Curious of your intent

Time will only tell
If things will excel or we say our farewells

Actions speak louder than words could ever
Hoping we are successful in our endeavor

Eager to see if you can take my breathe and leave me fatigue
You have me very intrigued…

Thursday, December 9, 2010



Vibes flowing within my veins
Of thoughts remain
On the tip of my pen
Releasing over and over again
Flooding paper with unspoken words
Previously unheard
No longer locked inside
All my secrets I confide
Feeling the rhythm
Becoming the victim
Getting lost in thought
Inner battles being fought
Verses being scribed
Syncing with each syllable of this vibe


Wednesday, December 8, 2010


Awaken Love-Charlotte Atkinson


His touch awakens, as a breath of fresh air
His kiss evokes feelings deep
Way beyond a casual affair
With my heart at ease, comes peaceful sleep
His heart soothes inner fears
His eyes confirm sincerity
Wiping away stains left from trails of tears
Walls tumbling, leaving room for prosperity
His personality completely comforts, emotions ignite
His hands guide in new undiscovered directions
Withstanding disagreements, previews a different light
Willingly demonstrates truth behind affections
His voice fills my ears, profoundly outspoken
Words don’t give justice to an unwritten lyric
With him, love prevails the unspoken
His love fully awakens my spirit


Tuesday, December 7, 2010




Fresh hair cut and color; make up looking fierce
Eyes deep enough to pierce

My fresh black pumps with the newly manicured toes out
Looks are deceiving; inside I am overcoming self doubt

Tight, sexy dark blue jeans with the red low cut top
Making all of the on-looking mens jaw drop

Cute baby face on the outside
But who wants to really know the complete inside

Short in height and small in frame
Does anyone care whats really in my brain

Focused and professional. but always real
When will someone truly care how I really feel

Smiling face in front of others
Can we truly trust one another

Not impressed unless they can really connect mentally
And not only for satisfaction that only lasts momentarily

The eyes are the key to ones soul
Look deep inside that person and see thier true role

Everyone in life is not for keeps
Every night I singly sleep

Choosing not to settle for less than I deserve
My full heart I have chosen to reserve

It's not in my physical description, but whats in my heart
My inner beauty is my true work of art

Monday, December 6, 2010

Just Once More

Just Once More

Lying here in this bed next to him
Wanting him to touch and love me until my knees go numb
Longing to feel his soft kisses on my neck
Loving me all the way down past the small of my back
His hands caressing my thighs as gentle as a feather
Making my senses alert and sensitive to his touch
Craving to feel him inside
Taking me to our special sensual place
Indulging into pure ecstasy
Falling asleep in his arms, awakening to his much desired kisses
But instead
I lay next to this man I love with every molecule of my body
Hurting, missing the love we shared
Both knowing we cannot be, not now
But the love we share is so powerful and keeps pulling us back
Now we lay here as two friends would
Pretending we don’t want to give in
Just once more…


Thursday, December 2, 2010



His lips taste as sweet as chocolate strawberries
The love he continuously gives, my heart carries

Softly rubbing his sexy, clean shaven bald head
Knowing repeated eruption is not far ahead

While his juicy lips are gently massaging me
From my head all the way down to my feet

His hands slowly caressing, bringing sensations to new heights
Perfecting tongue wrestling fights

Stimulating each and every one of my senses
Licking up the fluids my body endlessly dispenses

Anticipating returning the favor
Each drop of him I truly savor

Loving each and every part of him
Until he feels complete numbness in his limbs

His muscular arms cradling my body to the best position
Forcing me into total submission

Following his lead
From his reactions I feed

Pure ecstasy refined
Memories I replay in my mind


Wednesday, December 1, 2010

AIDS-National AIDS Day

In loving memory of
Joe Hurlburt
 (Pictured on your left, the tallest one)
March 17, 1971 - July 9, 1997


Aids took over and totally consumed his body
Causing him constant immeasurable pain
The pain was so great that he pushed away everybody
Until he was unable to maintain
He was no longer the brother I once knew
He had only himself to blame
This is the brother that taught me how to tie my shoes
He tortured himself in shame
He was scared to die but it was now a reality
All he wanted was to be loved
And now he was paying for his sexuality
He died feeling completely unloved
Except from his family and the people who really mattered
My mom had to watch her son slowly wither away
Her world was forever shattered
His death affected everyone around
I not only lost my brother but my best friend
Even though 13 years has passed, his presence still surrounds
The sorrow of missing him will never end
The memories I will never forget
The good and bad times I will always cherish
There is not a moment of regret
I still can’t believe his life on earth has been perished
I will hold his love in my heart forever
And the lessons he taught
His son never really knew his father however
His battle on earth has been fought

Good Morning All! Today is National AIDS day, a very important day for me since my brother succumbed to this horrible disease. People think they are invincible, just as he did. This is a very serious issue, please protect yourself. A moment of satisfaction could lead to a horrible death, one that I wouldnt wish upon my worst enemy.