Thursday, September 30, 2010


Random picture taken from a google search


Tear drops staining my cheeks
Just hearing the words as he speaks

He is giving up and cant take no more
My issues he can no longer ignore

I know I am not easy to love
My insecurities stood way above

I constantly pushed him away
Not sure if he was to betray

I just couldnt let him in
I didnt even allow us to begin

The truth was that he already had my heart
From the very start

I didnt want him to take advantage
I dont know how I am going to manage

No desire to move on
Feeling neglected and withdrawn

I love him more than I could show
Now he will never know

Freeing myself of this inner pain
My soul is cleansing with each drop of rain


Wednesday, September 29, 2010



Dear Lord,

I put my life into your hands
Even if I don't understand
Only you know what's best for me
And with faith my heart agrees
I am at a crossroad in my life
Two men want me to be thier wife
And I am not sure which way to turn
Your guidance I yearn
My financial situation is not quite right
I am in desperate need of your insight
I want to be able to provide
At home where my children reside
I desire to be the best person I can be
And live my future as you foresee
Please shine your light
And give me a line of sight
Now I pray and listen for your voice
In your name I rejoice
I know you will give me all I seek
To my heart you speak


Tuesday, September 28, 2010


Dali Salvador


I want someone unconditionally...

Someone that tells and shows me how special I am to them
Someone that will make sure I am ok before he is worried about him
Someone who unconditionally loves me for me
Someone who encourages me to be everything I can be
Someone who for no reason brings me flowers
Someone who believes in unconditional love and its true powers
Someone who listens and truly cares how I feel
Someone who is man enough to tell me no
Someone who is secure enough to allow his love to clearly show
Someone who will treat me like a woman should
Someone who will jump hoops to do all he could
Someone taht makes you want to rush home to
Someone nightly to make love to
Someone to hold me at night
Someone who no longer wants to argue and fight
Someone who would never put his hands on me
Someone who wouldnt dream of cheating and only desires me
Someone that cant imagine thier life without me
Someone who is prepared to stand on bended knee

Does this man exist?
Is this too much to ask?
I am prepared to give the same in return and then some...


Thursday, September 23, 2010

His Battle

His Battle

Let go and your joy will be complete
Dont just fall in defeat
Your troubles make you stronger
Dont hold onto the guilt any longer
Repent your sins
And your peace will begin
Never give up hope
Whatever it is, you CAN cope
Set your mind at ease
Dont question God's expertise
Stay in fear of His reign
Allow His glory to attain
And His knowledge to excite
Realize that its just not your battle to fight

This is a repost...I needed this reminder today...I hope that everyone has a great weekend.  I will be back on Tuesday...

Wednesday, September 22, 2010


Monet's Garden


You deserve more than I have given
Time and time you have forgiven
My doubt and fears
When my insecurities interfered
I constantly ran from the inevitable
My past mistakes were no longer deniable
But you always loved me for me regardless
Even when my love I attempted to suppress
But I can no longer deny
Never again say goodbye
My loyalty I can guarantee
I love you with everything thats in me
My heart is no longer broken
Words can no longer be spoken
My actions will show clear
My heart is truly sincere

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Step Up

Step Up

It's time to step up or walk away
No longer being led astray
My desires aren't being met
My needs you've chose to neglect
Luckily my heart isn't in too deep
But please don't sleep
Because I do have options
So take this as a word of caution
What you won't do someone else will
Your place can be easily filled
It's now or never
I am not going to wait forever

The above butterfly pictures represent me possibly having to fly away if need be.  Flying to my destiny...

Monday, September 20, 2010


Pablo Picasso-Sleeping Woman


Actions speak louder than words
My vision is no longer blurred
By your empty promises
Loneliness I can no longer harness
With affections I desire
The level I want is so much higher
More than you are able to give it seems
To you it feels like I am going to extremes
But I dont think what I am asking is too much
Wanting more than just your touch
Needing more of you
Than this distant view
Not sure how much longer I can wait
My patience is about to deflate
If you truly love me like you say you do
Your actions need to make their debut

I am blown that half of the blogs I follow are now blocked by my security wall.  I would love to read about Senorita's explorations in Paris, and I miss my Man Five Fridays.  Not to mention I cant get onto Ms Downlow's blog anymore and she was the first blog I ever followed.  So if you are no longer getting comments from me, I probaly cant even get onto your blog anymore :(

Friday, September 17, 2010

Happy Birthday Dulce-Friday 55

Happy Birthday Dulce

A fellow poet who wears her heart on her sleeve
Sharing love that is so beautiful that you cant not believe

We share in the feelings she displays
As we explore each phrase

Grabbing our attention
Making our own comprehension

Sharing parts of her
Life happenings that occur

Touching each person differently
Making relations incidentally

*Click on Dulce's name to share in her poetry, I guranatee you will be happy that you became aquainted!

*Friday 55 is a theme brought to us by GMan.  click his name and check out the details

Thursday, September 16, 2010

My Heart

My Heart

I can be crazy and far from perfect
At times my flirtatious nature can be suspect
I overanalyze everything and am extra emotional
And my reactions are usually irrational
Sometimes I dont feel like cleaning
And my attitude is not always pleasing
My finances and debt are overwhelming
And my stresses can be overbearing
Even though I am carrying baggage
My heart is bigger than the average
My love is true and sincere
And will never disappear
I give you an invitation into my life to be a part
All I have to offer is the love in my heart

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

True Importance

True Importance

We are allowing life to take over
Defining whats urgent
Instead of prioritizing
For whats really important
Lifes petty obligations
Really dont matter
Why stress over the unimportant
Take time to enjoy life
Live out your purpose in life
Take the gifts that God has given
And use them for thier true purpose
Bless others just as He has blessed you
Even when we dont understand
Obey and have faith in His plan
Even if we dont like it
We are exactly where we are supposed to be
Enjoy this moment in time
Savor the beauty and blessings in front of us
Learn the lessons provided
Allow your home to be your sanctuary
Block out the troubles of the world
Make time for what truly important
Take time to reflect
Listen and hear His instructions
Dont allow life to cloud your hearing
Envision the path that has been provided

Tuesday, September 14, 2010



Why do we worry and stress
Instead of awaiting God to Bless

We make choices that have consequences
Blaming Him for our mistakes is our greatest offense

Why do we fight against His will
Instead of trusting His Word to instill

Faith that everything will work out just as its supposed to
And not always when and how we want it to

We need to learn how to let go
And realize that He is the One that is in control

All He asks for is our love and obedience
Pray at the altar with faith and confidence

Live out our purpose here in this life
And He guarantees us eternal life

With inner peace and unconditional love
Just build a personal relationship with God above

Monday, September 13, 2010




My love for you runs deep within my soul
My worries and fears, your love continues to console

We have been through our share of adversities
And overcome all of our uncertainties

No longer plauged by doubt
Your love I never want to live without


Thursday, September 9, 2010


Random art via internet-Not sure who did this work but its cool :)


Mindless state of mind
Natural instincts redefined

In the seconds he enters my presence
Within my veins I feel his essence

His voice sends chills
His love fulfills

Emptiness that I didnt know existed
Love making revisited

He instinctively knows just where to kiss
Reminding me what I have missed

His touch sends vibes
That no prescription can prescribe

Pure ecstasy runs through my soul
Pleasure if the ultimate goal

He takes to places no man can find
Clocks stop in this moment in time

Words dont give justice to the feelings he introduces
Just with the look in his eyes he instantly seduces

The seconds and hours with him I constantly reminisce
Sending me into a mindless state of bliss

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

Inner Flame


Inner Flame

Again you made love to me and made my heart skip a beat
With your love felt inside no other man could ever compete

All the love you continue to demonstrate I happily reap
Now as I lay next to you watching you peacefully sleep

Thinking of all the ways I want to please you
Giving to you well deserved happiness that is long over due

What we share is unexplainable with words spoken
You fill the holes in my heart that was once broken

There is no one true definition of our love
The depths you have taken me were undreamed of

I urge to break down my barriers and my whole heart allow you to claim
With only you to share the intensity of this undying inner flame

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Forever Young

Forever Young

Dedicated to the life of Andrea Arnold

Our Heavenly Father needed his angel
We can search for reasons from every angle
And still never understand
His ultimate plan
Take comfort that she can no longer feel pain
Eventhough your life will never be the same
Cherish the memories that will never fade
Find that strength that she always displayed
I will always remember her smile
Although I have only known her a short while
She was one of my daughters best friends
The person she could confide and depend
I saw beautiful soul
Mother to mother, I wish I had the words to console
Always remember the laughter and the fun
In our hearts she is forever young

Friday, September 3, 2010

In Love-Friday's 55

Starry Night-Vincent van Gogh

Dedicated to Dulce :) who shares this passion of love that reaches depths others dream of. 

In Love

In love with love
The idea of love
The illustrations of love
The feeling of love
The fullness of love
The comfort of love
The courage of love
The sexiness of love
The sensuality of love
The electricity of love
The enrichment of love
The illusion of love
The "In Love" of love

The crazy thing is I wrote this poem a few months back and have already posted it here...But today friday I got to post it, which I had planned on posting yesterday...but I just so happen to look at the word count...and its exactly 55 words (including the title) and I am JUST realizing it....So I guess it was meant to be today :)  And I truly struggle to fit all I need to say in 55 words when I do them on purpose...This one was a pleasant suprise :)  Shouts out to the infamous G-Man!!!!!

Note: Senorita-I cant get onto your blog anymore at work :( They classified it as "porn" WTF....That just blew me

Thursday, September 2, 2010

Prom Pic

This is my oldest daughter at the prom this past prom season...

Wednesday, September 1, 2010



Lying in my bed listening to the rain drops
Wishing they would never stop

Not wanting to leave these covers
Hiding and not wanting to be discovered

Enjoying being alone
Everything else can be postponed

Taking personal quality time
Not worrying about dealines

Completely focused on me
And what it is that I need

Actually loving me in totality
Door knocks bring me back to reality

Ignoring everyone else
Only going by my own impulse

Being alone is actually not that bad
No one to get on my nerves and make me mad

Relaxing with everyone out of reach
Listening to my own inner speech

Not depending on anyone's guarantee
Discovering that I do really love me