Friday, October 29, 2010



I just don't know what it is about that man
He just does something to me
That no other can
Willingly locked in his love like a detainee
That place in my heart his name is etched
Unchartered territory of any other
Only his image my eyes have sketched
He gives me chills and makes my heart flutter
Hanging on and never letting go
Love overflowing like a tidal wave
Day by day the intensity grows
It's only him that my heart and body craves

Thursday, October 28, 2010



Dreams interrupted
Rudely awakened
In the wee hours of the morning
Rounds of gun shots firing
Screams of terror and fear
Constant news horror stories
And witnessing what's not reported

Becoming routine occurrences
Tired of the shootings
Daily robberies
Carjacking realities
Domestic violence
Child abuse and sexual assaults
Hourly murders

When does it end
Never I guess
When do you get numb
To the acts of violence
I simply can't
Violence is a part of my life
That I can never accept

Chaos of different kinds
Shows in every aspect of life
All we can do
Is live life to the fullest
Live like it's our last day
And avoid being center
In a life of chaos


Wednesday, October 27, 2010


FYI-The above pic is NOT me...Its just a random image that I got from a google search


Rain drops saturating
Immersing my pores
Tears escaping my eyes
Renewing my soul
Releasing emotions
Soaked leaves and debris
Squashed under my feet
Embracing the cleansing


Tuesday, October 26, 2010



Every time you walk into a room, I feel you
I feel the strength of our hearts pursuit

When I close my eyes, you are on my mind
Feelings take over, chills run up and down my spine

Yearning to feel you deep inside
Wanting to feel our passions collide

Craving to feel your kisses caressing me
From head to toe, setting me free

The depths of these feelings my hearts confessed
Thoughts of you leave me completely breathless....


Monday, October 25, 2010



Isolated in my own mind
My own world I drift
Falling into my own darkness
Facing my own demons
Totally alone


Just going through the motions of life
In my own fogged daze
Life feeling repetitive
Feeling as I am facing the world on my own
Loneliness and depression takes over


Body becoming numb
Wishing time away
Depression controlling thoughts
Nightmares feeling like reality
In my own mind



Friday, October 22, 2010


For all the great comments!  I left Weds after writing that blog.  I have been home sick with a stomach virus.

I hope that everyone has a great weekend!

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Not Today

Not Today

I am just not the one today
Everyone needs to just stay out of my way
Not in the mood for nonsense
Trying not to let my mood cause offense
But people stay testing my patience
True my attitude needs some maintenance
Just not feeling ok in any way
Because today is not the day

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Dont Bother

Don't Bother

I am getting tired of these guys spittin game
It's all starting to sound the same
Half or more are married or committed
But of course the truth was omitted
Pretending to want more
When it's really only my body they want to explore
Sorry, I am just not that easy
It takes some true effort to please me
And what happened to chivalry
What's up with guys approach, literally
Can I please have some respect
From the door your intentions I can detect
I am really starting to get irritated
When any approach is illustrated
My excuse may be awkward
I truly don't even want to be bothered

Monday, October 18, 2010



Winds brushing my lips reminding
Heating cold nights
Cooling summer sweats
Quiet in a crowded room
Beams of light in darkness
Teaching the untaught
Smiles replacing emptiness
Kissing tear drops
Loving the unlovable
Remembering his love

Friday, October 15, 2010



I want what I want and now
Even when I am not sure how
Patience is something I am not good at
Impulsiveness is something I combat
I go with the flow of the moment
Loneliness has been an adjustment
In trying to find the perfect match
There are feelings that attach
Been back and forth a few times
To see which light shines
The brightest in realities eyes
Over and over I revise
In the end I just want something real
I want true love to reveal
But I don't trust my decision's
Not sure if this is what I envisioned
Trying to calm the apprehensive
And no longer be so indecisive


Thursday, October 14, 2010


Irresistible Love-Hessam


Not a moment goes by
That my body doesn't crave
The way our tongues tie
Tasting each second memory saved
Soft kisses on my neck and lips
I cant even pretend to resist
Pure love sips
Drunken passion twisted
Tingling sensation
Floating high
Loves creation
Nothing denied
Everything kissable
Ecstasy irresistible


Wednesday, October 13, 2010



It's a known that women love stronger than men
We stay in search of true love
Wanting that one man to love us to no end
Giving us everything our heart is in search of
We dont take in account real life
No man or woman is perfect
We are too caught up in being his wife
That our feelings misdirect
We have to learn to love the man for who he truly is
And not what we want him to be
Why do we have to investigate in belongings of his
Why do we look for a guarantee
We need to be spending time making sure personalities fit
Seeing if everything about him we can love
The signs are there from the begining but our blinders omit
Does the good in him stand above
Enjoy time spent and stop looking for secrets to reveal
Stop searching for a love thats perfect and surreal

Good Morning All!  I truly try not to visit blogs before I write whatever I am going to write because they influence my topics.  But this morning I read Traci Lavette's blog (<----Click to check out her post) and read about women wanting men to commit.  Check it out.  But this is where this poem was born.  I am guilty of all of the things above and maybe needed this reminder myself...I hope you enjoy...

Tuesday, October 12, 2010



Heart pounding rapidly
Stomach tossing and turning
Body heat rising
A lump forming in my throat
Words escape my mind
Stuck on the edge of my tongue
Not able to release
By simply speaking
Revealing inner meaning
Confessing true love
For now these words remain confined
Until the time is right
Or maybe never to be spoken

Friday, October 8, 2010

Your Song-Guest Poet-Fallyn

Your Song
Written by: Fallyn Schonthaler

A look across the room, an innocent compliment
A chance to talk alone, attraction is imminent

Casual touch, intense flirtation
Everything fades out
Loss of concentration

An embrace, a kiss, your lips electricity
My body aches to react, but this is full of complexity

My heart wants to love; my body to lust
If this feelings grows stronger, I just may combust
I dont want to give in, but how can I trust

Your eyes always warm, your smile is mine
Your love keeps me strong, a feeling devine

To be with you in every way, I hate to prolong
Because in my heart I know, to you I'll always belong
When I'm with you my soul sings your song

Thursday, October 7, 2010



It takes a special man to love me
My emotions are over the top to the thousandth degree
It doesnt take much for me to get in my feelings
My heart still needs healing
I need a man who is willing to comfort
My insecurities to avert
Someone who has no problem with reassurance
And doesnt see my emotions as a hinderance
Because along with strong emotions
Comes loyalty and devotion
When you truly love me
You have to love all of me


Wednesday, October 6, 2010

All or Nothing

All or Nothing

You don't really want to hear
The words that caused my tears
Or know the reason my heart aches
My emotions you don't want to partake
My fears and doubts you don't care to ease
Once that door is closed, barricading is my expertise
I can't lock away only half of my heart
This will cause no more feelings to depart
Now I will keep all within
Things will never again be like they've been
If I can no longer release
Denying a part of me just to appease
Accept me for me
This is my final plea
Or it's leading to our downfall
It's all or nothing at all

Tuesday, October 5, 2010



Taking it one day at a time
Feelings not exactly sublime
Life is so reptetitive and routine
And nothing in between
No joys of fulfillment
No love instilled
I feel like I am battling this world alone
While situations continue to be thrown
Feelings of neglect
Sort of like a disconnect
Body becoming numb
Not sure if what I want will ever come
Or if it even truly exists
Loneliness persists
Feeling if I die tomorrow
There will be no tears of sorrow
Everyone will live thier lives as normal
Why do my emotions have to be abnormal
Why do I care so much
Sometimes my heart needs to be touched
I get insecure and need reminding
Mind games unwinding
Is it wrong to want to feel love seeping my pores
For my feelings to be nurtured and not ignored

Monday, October 4, 2010



It all started when my marriage crumbled into ashes
My life went crashing

I had no idea what was about to transpire
Distress got me fired

Life turning upside down
So called friends are nowhere to be found

Had to make the hardest decison
Sending my children to daddy was more than I could envision

Endured unimaginable affliction
Starting all from the first eviction

Living place to place was not where they needed to be
Sleeping and eating daily was not a guarantee

No one showed me compassion
Generosity only came in rations

Times got desperate
Keeping mind and body seperate

As I did things I never thought I could do
Putting myself in situations I wish no one had to Ever go through

I learned no one truly cares
Except the Man above, who I send my tearful prayers

Had to learn how to humble myself and set my pride aside
Having faith that He will always provide

All along He heard my silent plea
After I learned my lessons He started blessing me

Sending me in the direction I needed to succeed
Gaining the strength to proceed

He carried me through the horrors of the streets
My fears I have no choice but to defeat

Friday, October 1, 2010

Missing Your Love

Random art borrowed from the internet

Missing Your Love

It's the soft, slow kisses on my neck I miss
Sending me into a total state of bliss

Making love felt like we were the only two in existence
Continuously pleasing me with strong persistence

Watching the sun set with the moonlight reflecting off of the waves
Its only you I endlessly crave

Driving hours with strong anticipation
To relieve all of my sexual frustration

Just being in your presence
Feeling your essence

Was all I ever needed
But my insecurities interceded

Being unable to trust I ruined "us"
And any chances we had of success

But I can't stop feeling the pain
Now only missing your touch remains

Missing the sound of your voice
The way you made my heart rejoice

Inside and out the way you made me feel
My true feelings I can no longer conceal

I am missing your love
And the lack thereof