Tuesday, October 5, 2010

Ignored


Ignored

Taking it one day at a time
Feelings not exactly sublime
Life is so reptetitive and routine
And nothing in between
No joys of fulfillment
No love instilled
I feel like I am battling this world alone
While situations continue to be thrown
Feelings of neglect
Sort of like a disconnect
Body becoming numb
Not sure if what I want will ever come
Or if it even truly exists
Loneliness persists
Feeling if I die tomorrow
There will be no tears of sorrow
Everyone will live thier lives as normal
Why do my emotions have to be abnormal
Why do I care so much
Sometimes my heart needs to be touched
I get insecure and need reminding
Mind games unwinding
Is it wrong to want to feel love seeping my pores
For my feelings to be nurtured and not ignored


13 comments:

JStar said...

Ouch Big Mark...You are so on point...with EVERY word you spoke...I think thats exactly how I needed it broken down for me...Thanks for your insight :)

steveroni said...

A counselor I am not. But if I were, you might wish to seek my help.

Do you ask the aid of your Higher Power? Do you ask for THAT will to become yours? One thing we CAN ask--and receive--is the power to carry out THAT will/desire of the Creator...in our lives.

Heavy-Duty stuff!
God bless and keep you, girl!
PEACE!

JStar said...

Oh yes Steve, I KNOW He will provide all that I NEED.

I think sometimes I want too much...more than I need. Al I seek is true everlasting love and that fulfillment and confidence it gives...security that I am not facing this world alone...I think sometimes what I think I need from a man isnt even possible for a man to give...

elizabeth said...

i love this post because i feel the exact same way. ignored by him :(

Miss.Stefanie said...

Being ignored blows...and I say God with lead you through

JStar said...

:) Thanks Stef! YES HE will...He has our backs when no one else does! We are NEVER alone...

JStar said...

:( I know it hurts Elizabeth...but it will only make us stronger...

Brian Miller said...

the right man can...
perhaps its not wanting too much but setling for too little...

sorry if that stings a bit...

JStar said...

I hope so Brian...I have my standards high. Sometimes I think I want a perfect man, but perfect doesnt exist. I want someone perfect for me. I think I settle for momentary satisfaction when I cant get what I want just out of being tired of being alone...

I love it honest Brian. Thats why I ask for advice. I need someone to tell me what I already know to be true but may not want to accept...I write raw, and expect raw opinion! Thanks :)

Opaque said...

I don't think you are over-analyzing... I think you are being cautious... makes me want to add that I am sure you will make the right decision...

Emmanuel Ibok said...

Outstanding poem...I wish you the best and hope you make the right choices in your decisions.

Cheers!

Wild Rose said...

Wow this is painful even reading it but so beautifully expressed. I love your way of pouring emotions. Lovely poem.

Wild Rose~

tha unpretentious narcissist© said...

ok..you gotta get out my mind. out my head. and out my mouth (fingers) cause you are saying everything that passes through my head. like seriously. i think even when you are secure, these thoughts hit you and make you just overthink everything.

"is it wrong to want to feel love seeping my pores" - love you for that line. that just made my night. lol