Vengeful Envy

The wind whispered secrets in my ear of truths and falsies 

Spread further than the eyes could see

Beneath so-called friendships were deceiving lies all the while smiling in my face

Sucking away the air from my personal space

Vultures hovering over each word and sentence thinking of ways to construe

Attempting to take away joys and life with untruths

Little did they know their evil intentions were recognized for exactly what they were

Resistance made the pot difficult to stir

Sticking their noses in business that they had no right to assume

Victory prevailed never taking flight to consume

Privacy no longer being private, publicity became a dark shadow luring in defiance 

But in the end the real story became truths reliance

While side chatter will always continue

An arms lengths distance will now ensue

Nothing or no one can take the words from my heart and sound from my lips

It's just now my mind is stronger than hateful grips

I now can see the real from the fake

And my happiness will never again be at stake

No one has the power to take what's truly mine

In my thoughts my secrets are now confined

Lessons learned reserving my trust

True love has more strength than envy and lust

I can forgive but never forget so save any apologies or pleads

Vengeance in the end has no choice but to concede

Beautiful Silence

Just laying here in your arms I feel your soul connected to mine

Tingly sensations run up and down my spine

As I lie on your shoulder and caress your chest, each inch of your skin I kiss

Each second of our love making over and over I reminisce

Words not needed because each emotion is being felt and our eyes tell no lies

As each sunset’s, in you my sun rises

Our lips connect in ways that defy language with our own interpretations

Physical actions create cosmic salutations

Telepathically speaking our own heartfelt dialect

Communicating directly indirect

Brushing my hair to the side leaving kissed stained cheeks

In unidentified tongues our passion speaks

Imperfect perfections of moon gliding and spiritual dances

Right side up but yet upside down my heart and mind collectively enhances

I feel a war of spiritual revolution

Each nerve ending rejoices in electrocution

Brainwaves create inner galactic sound waves of our rhythmic harmony

Melodically script writing love-filled symphonies

Star surfing among constellations

With destiny being our destination

Inside out and outside in I feel you

As stained glass I see only you through

Feeding off the words unspoken yet spoken loud and clear

Our hearts so naturally cohered

Beyond explanation

Loves diagnosis without question or examinations

Flowing through each other as a river of inner commotion

Mixing pheromone ingredients of our unique love potion

Addiction remedies to a fiend’s lust

Beyond words being discussed

Lavishing in assurance of a non-verbal communicated alliance

Our souls speaking our beautiful silence

Insane Sanity

All I am asking for is a break

Time to catch my breath and stand up after I fall

Not enough being deposited, but banks still continue to take

Catching up just to fall behind constantly overdrawn and backed up

against the wall

If it’s going to happen, it’s surely going to happen to me

I try to smile regardless but at night when I am alone the tears stream

Feeling as if the waves are drowning me in a dead sea

My pride holds me back and erases my dreams

The weight I carry all by myself gets so heavy that I feel as if I just can’t go on

If it’s not one thing, it’s another…when does it end

I never expected life to be easy but I don’t even have those to depend upon

Not even asking to be rescued but a shoulder to cry on and ears to comprehend

Would make my load just a bit lighter and able to manage

I wouldn’t feel so alone

And always at a disadvantage

Down the drain, my sanity forms into a cyclone landing me dead center

in the drop zone

Not sure how much longer I can maintain

Hanging onto the edge of the cliff contemplating the jump

Just wanting to relieve this pain

Breaking finger nails and drawing blood trying to scrape out of this slump

Mind on overload analyzing different options that would draw different

conclusions

My tunnel is filled with darkness and no shadows of light seep through

Tricks played on my conscious forming insane delusions

Different circumstances with results seeming like déjà vu

My eyes reveal deep sadness but my smile distracts focus

Daily forcing away negative thoughts attempting to only see positive displays

Adjusting my lenses to refocus

It’s just not as easy on some days

And I allow myself to be consumed

To feel every emotion in this process

And then some days I am numb and keep my pain entombed

Every once in awhile mental relief comes and I make progress

But I have learned to fake inner happiness so often that I can at

times forget as well

Then around the next corner I get slammed in the face

My thoughts captured and can’t help but dwell

This repeating cycle I continue to retrace

I must break free and find my mind some peace

Learning to let go even though painlessly isn’t always the case

But I must stop worrying and release

And this negative energy erase

Discover what happiness truly feels like

Regaining spiritual vanity

Ending my personal strike

With my battle against insane sanity