Baptismal

Good Morning All!  I wrote this yesterday about my experience being Baptized with my daughters!  This experience was beyond words, but I did my best to capture my feelings at the time.  Last spring I decided to renew my commitment with God, and my daughters also expressed the same intrest.  So we were Baptized last April together!  I am still so proud of my girls.  They have been on the honor roll for years, but this semester my oldest got straight A's-Her GPA is 4.12 and she recieved a plaque :)  That will look good on her college applications next year :)

Repenting our sins
Our walk with Him begins

His glory within us resides
Grasping the wholeness He provides

Taking His extended invite
We are dressed in all white

As my body is dipped into His holy waters
I commit my life to Him beside my daughters

With His holy spirit, I feel renewed
Arising from the waters, the reformed me debuted

My daughters followed my lead
What a tear-filled honor indeed

I stood next to them while thier bodies were submerged and purified
In His name, we glorify

We now see the world with different eyes
Our spirit and soul has now been Baptized

You're Not Ready...

Good Morning All!  I wrote this back in 2005, I am not currently feeling this way...I hope everyone had a great weekend!  I finally caught up on my rest...

You’re not ready for the depths of my love
And all it consists thereof

You’re not ready to let go
And truly discover love at its plateau

You’re still not ready to leave those others alone
When you’ve been offered the crown to my king’s throne

With every desire and fantasy fulfilled
And long years of bliss as our foundation continued to build

You’re not ready for a lifetime of pure and true happiness
Ending all disappointments and any emptiness

The memories we have made I will continue to relive
Because you’re still not ready for the love I have inside to give

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Precious Life

Good Morning All!  I wrote and posted this back in June 2008.

God Bless ALL!  God is sooo amazing.  He has been sending me messages and I have been paying attention.  In public I smile always, always completmented on my smiling all time...Even if I am upset, depressed or stressin.  My smile is sorta my defense...My way of keeping people out...I got my taxes back recently and took care of mostly everything I needed to take care of, and actually spent more than I really should have, but not friviously on stuff needed.  And there is more stuff that I really needed to take care of but was unable to.  So the past few days I have been trying to figure out how I was going to have enough for gas to get to work and all that.  My co worker JUST walked up to me and said "The Holy Spirit told me that you needed 20 dollars" handed me a 20 and walked away.  Mind you, no one knew that I was stressing over money.  Thank You Jesus!!

Life is so precious
It is something that should never be neglected

Savor each moment
As it is your last momentum

Every second that is past
Treat is as your last

Cherish time spent
Everything has something to represent

Take time and notice the small things
And see what it brings

Once the time is gone
There is no recalling

Always remember as you climb
God only gives us one lifetime

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Impaired

I wrote this in August but still feeling the same way...I am hoping to break this cycle. I am still oh so confused...But I am choosing not to make a decision and letting nature takes its course....Whatever happens, I will be cool with. Whatever is meant, will be and I am comfortable with that.


I hope that everyone is doing well and if there is snow where you are, I hope you are making it thru the best you can. I know I am about sick of this dang snow and more is coming this weekend :( I mean the states had enough time to clean these snow mounds up, but no we still have no lanes or disappearing lanes, parking is CRAZY or nonexistent....Traffic, I dont even wanna go there...It took me 2 hours to get home yesterday (Double my normal drive time) half the time I was held up by snow plows so I couldnt complain about that....But this snow STILL in this road is causing traffic to back up, ridicuoulsly...and people walking OMG PLEASE stay OUT the street or at least move when a car comes...I realize aint no sidewalks but if I am driving on ice/snow, I am NOT stopping...You either get out my way or get hit  LOL...Seriously tho...

Thoughts consuming my mind
Memories always remind

Of pain and grief
My heart stolen like a thief

Only to be hurt every time
Even after the wedding bells chimed

Every man I have ever given my heart to
Expected me to subdue

And accept treatment given
The torment cannot be forgiven

I am trying to forgive myself
And put this pain up on the shelf

But I am still unable to give my all
It’s only the nightmares I recall

Too scared to let the right one in
Can’t shake my feelings within

Blocking my future blessings
Constantly depressing

In a state of seclusion
Continuous confusion

Will I ever find inner peace
And allow the love inside to release

To the one deserving of my heart
Will this pain ever depart

Having faith in my belief
Praying for absolute relief

I feel broken and hopelessly in despair
I have declared myself love impaired

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Confused

Not sure what I want
State of confusion haunts
Not sure which way I should turn
Is this a lesson to be learned
What is it that I am searching for
I am not quite sure
I just know that I haven’t found a solution
Is there a possible resolution
At times I just want to scream
Wishing this was just a dream
But that wouldn’t help
This stress is compromising my health
Why do I let things get to me
Why do I let it affect me relentlessly
What would be the best
For me, when will it come together so I can rest
So now I contemplate
Hoping the choice I make wont be a mistake
Not having a clue
Confused and not sure what to do

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Valentine

Good Morning All!  I am alive and unburried myself out of the CRAZY snow...They said that the DMV got 55.9 inches of snow WTF...I took some pics below of the snow in my apt complex.  This is my stairs and parking lot.  I took these Sunday, but honestly there has been NO improvement since.  My stairs STILL look like this...I just know I dont wanna be at work :( but I am tired of being in the house...I been in the house since last FRIDAY...Before the first snow storm hit, then we got hit with another right behind that.  I swear if I dont ever see another snow flake again as long as I live I would be happy :) I did start a poem friday about the snow but after being stuck in the house I lost the mood to finish.  It wouldnt have been joyful :) 

TGIF I hope that everyone enjoys thier Valentines Day Weekend, I will be back online Tuesday. I wrote this VDay poem about 4 years back...enjoy :)  I went out shopping yesterday and got my daughters Valentines gifts :)

Valentine


Valentine’s is a day to show the ones you love how much you care
A time that all the love inside should be shared

This should also be continued each and every day after
I hope your days are filled with love and laughter

Just wanted to let you know on this day, you are on my mind
With you I desire quality time

I want to learn everything about you
Reflecting on ways to please you, tease you, and love you

Hoping that you never drift afar
I hope your Valentines Day is as special as you are

Happy Valentine’s Day Baby!!!


I am gonna borrow this from http://mymotherfuckedmickjagger.blogspot.com/

Name: Jennifer / JStar
Makes me happy: My daughters bring joy into my heart
Live where? Temple Hills, MD
Makes me sad: Failure
Favorite blog: http://sweeterpoetry.blogspot.com/
My own blog: http://msjstar1275.blogspot.com/
Favorite food: Seafood
Favorite look: I like the Victoria Beckham look…I had the style but grew it out
Life story: I am 34 year old, single mother of two teenage daughters (16 and 13). I enjoy writing poetry, short stories and novels. In my spare time I read.

Now, your turn...


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Proposal- Friday’s 55

Good Morning All!!  I wrote this 55 yesterday just to be ready for the G-Man :) 

The words escaped his mouth “I am ready to claim you as mine”
He moved the hair draping my neckline

Forehead kisses ever so gently
Expressed his love relentlessly

It’s time we share the love held inside
What was yearned for is now supplied

He knelt on bended knee
And proposed his love for me

Cant Let Go...

I just can’t seem to let you go
The love inside me continuously flows

You consume my every emotion and inner thoughts
The thought of losing you has me very distraught

Lying in this empty bed missing the warmth of your body next to mine
Making love to you, feeling our emotions intertwine

The strength of your arms embodying me
Allowing our hearts to agree

And give in to this love that we have created
These feelings felt have been long awaited

I just can’t walk away from this love that I feel
My true emotions can never be fully concealed

Listen and feel my hearts silent plea
Letting go of you, would be like letting go of a part of me

Baby, you are to me; my love’s plateau
Experience my love within and never let it go



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Stalker

I don’t know why some people can’t take no for an answer
I guess the thrill of the chase is the enhancer

You’re not man enough for me
I don’t care how much you beg and plea

Will you just leave me alone
Your reasons are unknown

Haven’t you hurt me enough
My road is already tough

With the hurt you already put me through
Now you’re sabotaging my happiness with your untruths

You didn’t treat me right when you had me
The abuse was a guarantee

That you will never have my heart
I wish your existence in my life would depart

Why can’t you just let me go
I don’t want you, you already know

Let me live my life in peace
And allow all this pain inside to release

From you, I just want to be free
Will you please stop stalking me

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Chances

We didn’t realize or appreciate what we had until it was gone
We used lack of communication as a pawn

We weren’t honest with ourselves much less each other
You were more than just my lover

I hold very intense love for you in my heart
My heart aches every moment we are apart

I thoroughly enjoy time spent with you
Your love I can’t bear to forever loose

I have given my heart and taken a chance on love
I only wish our problems could be reconciled and our love can rise above