Saturday, December 21, 2013

Disillusioned Love

I gave him my heart, which included all of me
He claimed his soul only belonged to me
Pretended to be only mine
That his body was all mine
But only came around when he had time
And my body was all of our time
No quality time he made time for
He always had more important things he made his time for
I wasn't a priority to him
I wasn't as important to him
As he tried to make me believe 
Spending moments in bed holding onto what he wanted me to believe 
Attention only paid through texts and phone calls
But he was consistent and for him my body still calls
Because for me, he was my one and only 
But for him, I wasn't his only
He had too many others to tend to
My needs weren't as important for him to cater to
My heart he only pretended to love
When in reality my body was his love
My heart was shattered in pieces
When his girl at home crushed each and every piece
Of hope I had for me and him
The dreams of happily ever after with just me and him 
The lies he fed to my vulnerability, I allowed 
He wasn't the only to blame because his false love, I allowed
Disregarding all the signs that were clear
He showed me who he was but now my fogged glass of vision was now clear
He promised he would never hurt me like that
He lied and say he loved me more than that
Even after the truth was revealed, he still tried to convince me that his love was real
Having me question fake from real
To clear my confusion I had to leave him alone
And pick up the smashed and broken piece of me, all alone


Reggie said...

I feel your pain JStar...........I suppose most of us have felt it at some time or another.

Brian Miller said...

ugh...not good...there has to be more sudstance to a relationship than the sex...and hey good on you for being willing to step back away and find yourself...

merry christmas jstar.

JStar said...

Thank you Reggie and Brian! This is not a current sutation but something I have experienced.