Thursday, January 14, 2010

Loneliness

I am so tired of being alone
Tired of feeling like I am on my own

Tired of waking up to an empty bed
Wondering what’s ahead

My standards are high as ever
But I don’t want to be by myself forever

I want to feel the feeling of love
An no longer the lack thereof

I want someone to share my thoughts and dreams
Nothing is ever how it seems

Being alone does has its benefits
But it also has its limits

I miss being made love to all night
And all those feelings that excite

I miss hearing the words “I love you”
That kind of love that makes you feel brand new

But I am not willing to accept just anything
Definitely not looking for a meaningless fling

Been there, done that many times before
But my feelings I can no longer ignore

Lately I have constantly pushed good men away
Terrified of being betrayed

I know I need to let my guards down some
Or I will allow my loneliness to succumb

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14 comments:

Kisses from Slave said...

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JStar said...

Thanks for the comment, but thats a lil too freaky for me Slave...I sure aint sending no exclusive pics to someone I dont know...but thanks for stoppin by...

The Visionary Butterfly said...

*love the new pics of your girls*


Ah loneliness...what or who can make us really complete? Keep seeking and you shall find.

JStar said...

Thanks Ms Butterfly :) they are growing up right before my eyes...

Maybe thats our problem, expecting someone else to fill a void within us...To make us happy when we are the only ones who know what we need and the only one who can make us happy...We search years and years to find that with someone else when its been right with us all along...

25champ said...

Happiness starts from within, once we are happy within ourselves is when we can reap the benefits of others.

JStar said...

Oh so true Champ, maybe thats my problem...I am not happy with myself and my life as it stands...But its on me to make those changes...I am in the process, its just taking longer than expected

Secretia said...

When we've been hurt and disappointed, it's so hard to let someone back in.

Secretia

beeyum said...

great post. i can relate, although it sometimes feels good to be alone.

Steve E said...

Fear can prevent me from all kinds of productiveness, AND experiencing the risks of living and loving. Got to open up, to myself, my job, my talents, and possible relationships.

Consider maybe counseling, to get your own ducks swimming in one direction?

JStar said...

Yea Secretia, that’s Exactly what I am dealing with…I pushed him away when I wanted to pull him closer…Fear got in the way…

Yea, it does Elizabeth…It has its benefits but its short falls as well…

So true Steve..Thats my biggest problem I am attempting to overcome…Yea, I tried to get counseling without success…I could really benefit from it, but its not possible at this moment…

Freckles said...

i just read this post and i feel you more than I can putinto words right now. I am inspired - thank you.

pennanddpaper said...

I LOVED THIS !
my feelings exactly.

JStar said...

Thankie Freckles and Penanddpaper...I just love comments like these...

Don said...

You've definitely captured the spirit of everything which makes a person feel lonely.

Wondering is the absolute worse.