Wednesday, April 20, 2011



Why do I run from what I want most
Always dodging chances at love
The ability to release all that’s locked in my heart
That one to share life experiences with
That someone to hold me at night

Instead I sleep alone
Dealing with loneliness each day
Feeling incomplete
Missing companionship
Yearning to love

Scared of being hurt
Or wasting time when it doesn’t work
Not wanting to be disappointed
Expecting one who is perfect
Knowing that’s not reality

I need to allow love in
Stop reflecting on what may never happen
Take a chance that I may not regret
Learn how to feel again
And no longer ask myself why


Brian Miller said...

prayers jstar...its not easy being alone and lonely...i am glad you wait for that right person though...

JStar said...

My thing is Brian, I have more than one good man around that would love to be a part of my life...but I pull away the second I feel anything...I am scared...terrified to unlock that door...that is dying to be opened..I am not in any rush...Just hope I can unlock that door oneday...

The Visionary Butterfly said...

Vodun my love, vodun! Come back to my blog and read my new post! Don't be in a hurry, you are desperate for nothing, only patience and sit by the pool, rest and draw your water ;)


Dulce said...

well WHY is the question today... it seems... hey -the time will come I say to myself, while I try to enjoy this moment and all I have- lucky me, lucky YOU!

Big Mark 243 said...

I am with Brian Miller ... only instead of 'wait' I would say that you need 'patience'... there are good reasons for you not to surrender to any of the good men in your life. As long as they persist, then you are doing what is best for you.

Besides, a truly worthy man would accept the challenge to be with you, and that is for real. It may be trite, but the song 'ain't no mountain high enough' is a great duet, is it not?

Ella Blue said...

I can relate.

Just telling it like it is said...

When it is right you will know it in your heart...Listen to that inner voice it will never fail you because it is when God is talking to you....and that I truly mean my dear!

Reggie said...

We want what we want. If you really and truly want to make a change, then you will.

Moya2bean said...

Beuatiful poem :)
Love it