Rain

Random picture taken from a google search

Rain

Tear drops staining my cheeks

Just hearing the words as he speaks

He is giving up and cant take no more

My issues he can no longer ignore

I know I am not easy to love

My insecurities stood way above

I constantly pushed him away

Not sure if he was to betray

I just couldnt let him in

I didnt even allow us to begin

The truth was that he already had my heart

From the very start

I didnt want him to take advantage

I dont know how I am going to manage

No desire to move on

Feeling neglected and withdrawn

I love him more than I could show

Now he will never know

Freeing myself of this inner pain

My soul is cleansing with each drop of rain

 

Speak

Speak

Dear Lord,

I put my life into your hands

Even if I don't understand

Only you know what's best for me

And with faith my heart agrees

I am at a crossroad in my life

Two men want me to be thier wife

And I am not sure which way to turn

Your guidance I yearn

My financial situation is not quite right

I am in desperate need of your insight

I want to be able to provide

At home where my children reside

I desire to be the best person I can be

And live my future as you foresee

Please shine your light

And give me a line of sight

Now I pray and listen for your voice

In your name I rejoice

I know you will give me all I seek

To my heart you speak

 

Someone

Dali Salvador

Someone

I want someone unconditionally...

Someone that tells and shows me how special I am to them

Someone that will make sure I am ok before he is worried about him

Someone who unconditionally loves me for me

Someone who encourages me to be everything I can be

Someone who for no reason brings me flowers

Someone who believes in unconditional love and its true powers

Someone who listens and truly cares how I feel

Someone who is man enough to tell me no

Someone who is secure enough to allow his love to clearly show

Someone who will treat me like a woman should

Someone who will jump hoops to do all he could

Someone taht makes you want to rush home to

Someone nightly to make love to

Someone to hold me at night

Someone who no longer wants to argue and fight

Someone who would never put his hands on me

Someone who wouldnt dream of cheating and only desires me

Someone that cant imagine thier life without me

Someone who is prepared to stand on bended knee

Does this man exist?

Is this too much to ask?

I am prepared to give the same in return and then some...

 

His Battle

His Battle

Let go and your joy will be complete

Dont just fall in defeat

Your troubles make you stronger

Dont hold onto the guilt any longer

Repent your sins

And your peace will begin

Never give up hope

Whatever it is, you CAN cope

Set your mind at ease

Dont question God's expertise

Stay in fear of His reign

Allow His glory to attain

And His knowledge to excite

Realize that its just not your battle to fight

This is a repost...I needed this reminder today...I hope that everyone has a great weekend.  I will be back on Tuesday...

Sincere

Monet's Garden

Sincere

You deserve more than I have given

Time and time you have forgiven

My doubt and fears

When my insecurities interfered

I constantly ran from the inevitable

My past mistakes were no longer deniable

But you always loved me for me regardless

Even when my love I attempted to suppress

But I can no longer deny

Never again say goodbye

My loyalty I can guarantee

I love you with everything thats in me

My heart is no longer broken

Words can no longer be spoken

My actions will show clear

My heart is truly sincere

Step Up

Step Up

It's time to step up or walk away

No longer being led astray

My desires aren't being met

My needs you've chose to neglect

Luckily my heart isn't in too deep

But please don't sleep

Because I do have options

So take this as a word of caution

What you won't do someone else will

Your place can be easily filled

It's now or never

I am not going to wait forever

The above butterfly pictures represent me possibly having to fly away if need be.  Flying to my destiny...

Action

Pablo Picasso-Sleeping Woman

Action

Actions speak louder than words

My vision is no longer blurred

By your empty promises

Loneliness I can no longer harness

With affections I desire

The level I want is so much higher

More than you are able to give it seems

To you it feels like I am going to extremes

But I dont think what I am asking is too much

Wanting more than just your touch

Needing more of you

Than this distant view

Not sure how much longer I can wait

My patience is about to deflate

If you truly love me like you say you do

Your actions need to make their debut

I am blown that half of the blogs I follow are now blocked by my security wall.  I would love to read about Senorita's explorations in Paris, and I miss my Man Five Fridays.  Not to mention I cant get onto Ms Downlow's blog anymore and she was the first blog I ever followed.  So if you are no longer getting comments from me, I probaly cant even get onto your blog anymore :(

Happy Birthday Dulce-Friday 55

Happy Birthday Dulce

A fellow poet who wears her heart on her sleeve
Sharing love that is so beautiful that you cant not believe

We share in the feelings she displays
As we explore each phrase

Grabbing our attention
Making our own comprehension

Sharing parts of her
Life happenings that occur

Touching each person differently
Making relations incidentally

*Click on Dulce's name to share in her poetry, I guranatee you will be happy that you became aquainted!

*Friday 55 is a theme brought to us by GMan.  click his name and check out the details

My Heart

My Heart

I can be crazy and far from perfect

At times my flirtatious nature can be suspect

I overanalyze everything and am extra emotional

And my reactions are usually irrational

Sometimes I dont feel like cleaning
And my attitude is not always pleasing
My finances and debt are overwhelming
And my stresses can be overbearing
Even though I am carrying baggage

My heart is bigger than the average

My love is true and sincere

And will never disappear

I give you an invitation into my life to be a part

All I have to offer is the love in my heart

True Importance

True Importance

We are allowing life to take over

Defining whats urgent

Instead of prioritizing

For whats really important

Lifes petty obligations

Really dont matter

Why stress over the unimportant

Take time to enjoy life

Live out your purpose in life

Take the gifts that God has given

And use them for thier true purpose

Bless others just as He has blessed you

Even when we dont understand

Obey and have faith in His plan

Even if we dont like it

We are exactly where we are supposed to be

Enjoy this moment in time

Savor the beauty and blessings in front of us

Learn the lessons provided

Allow your home to be your sanctuary

Block out the troubles of the world

Make time for what truly important

Take time to reflect

Listen and hear His instructions

Dont allow life to cloud your hearing

Envision the path that has been provided

Faith

Faith

Why do we worry and stress

Instead of awaiting God to Bless

We make choices that have consequences

Blaming Him for our mistakes is our greatest offense

Why do we fight against His will

Instead of trusting His Word to instill

Faith that everything will work out just as its supposed to

And not always when and how we want it to

We need to learn how to let go

And realize that He is the One that is in control

All He asks for is our love and obedience

Pray at the altar with faith and confidence

Live out our purpose here in this life

And He guarantees us eternal life

With inner peace and unconditional love

Just build a personal relationship with God above

Deep

Monet-Giverny

Deep

My love for you runs deep within my soul

My worries and fears, your love continues to console

We have been through our share of adversities

And overcome all of our uncertainties

No longer plauged by doubt

Your love I never want to live without

 

Mindless

Random art via internet-Not sure who did this work but its cool :)

Mindless

Mindless state of mind

Natural instincts redefined

In the seconds he enters my presence

Within my veins I feel his essence

His voice sends chills

His love fulfills

Emptiness that I didnt know existed

Love making revisited

He instinctively knows just where to kiss

Reminding me what I have missed

His touch sends vibes

That no prescription can prescribe

Pure ecstasy runs through my soul

Pleasure if the ultimate goal

He takes to places no man can find

Clocks stop in this moment in time

Words dont give justice to the feelings he introduces

Just with the look in his eyes he instantly seduces

The seconds and hours with him I constantly reminisce

Sending me into a mindless state of bliss

Inner Flame

Monet-Waterloobridge

Inner Flame

Again you made love to me and made my heart skip a beat

With your love felt inside no other man could ever compete

All the love you continue to demonstrate I happily reap

Now as I lay next to you watching you peacefully sleep

Thinking of all the ways I want to please you

Giving to you well deserved happiness that is long over due

What we share is unexplainable with words spoken

You fill the holes in my heart that was once broken

There is no one true definition of our love

The depths you have taken me were undreamed of

I urge to break down my barriers and my whole heart allow you to claim

With only you to share the intensity of this undying inner flame

Forever Young

Forever Young

Dedicated to the life of Andrea Arnold

Our Heavenly Father needed his angel
We can search for reasons from every angle
And still never understand
His ultimate plan
Take comfort that she can no longer feel pain
Eventhough your life will never be the same
Cherish the memories that will never fade
Find that strength that she always displayed
I will always remember her smile
Although I have only known her a short while
She was one of my daughters best friends
The person she could confide and depend
I saw beautiful soul
Mother to mother, I wish I had the words to console
Always remember the laughter and the fun
In our hearts she is forever young

In Love-Friday's 55

Starry Night-Vincent van Gogh

Dedicated to Dulce :) who shares this passion of love that reaches depths others dream of. 

In Love

In love with love

The idea of love

The illustrations of love

The feeling of love

The fullness of love

The comfort of love

The courage of love

The sexiness of love

The sensuality of love

The electricity of love

The enrichment of love

The illusion of love

The "In Love" of love

The crazy thing is I wrote this poem a few months back and have already posted it here...But today friday I got to post it, which I had planned on posting yesterday...but I just so happen to look at the word count...and its exactly 55 words (including the title) and I am JUST realizing it....So I guess it was meant to be today :)  And I truly struggle to fit all I need to say in 55 words when I do them on purpose...This one was a pleasant suprise :)  Shouts out to the infamous G-Man!!!!!

Note: Senorita-I cant get onto your blog anymore at work :( They classified it as "porn" WTF....That just blew me

Prom Pic

This is my oldest daughter at the prom this past prom season...

Discovery

Discovery

Lying in my bed listening to the rain drops

Wishing they would never stop

Not wanting to leave these covers

Hiding and not wanting to be discovered

Enjoying being alone

Everything else can be postponed

Taking personal quality time

Not worrying about dealines

Completely focused on me

And what it is that I need

Actually loving me in totality

Door knocks bring me back to reality

Ignoring everyone else

Only going by my own impulse

Being alone is actually not that bad

No one to get on my nerves and make me mad

Relaxing with everyone out of reach

Listening to my own inner speech

Not depending on anyone's guarantee

Discovering that I do really love me