Crave

Crave

I just don't know what it is about that man

He just does something to me

That no other can

Willingly locked in his love like a detainee

That place in my heart his name is etched

Unchartered territory of any other

Only his image my eyes have sketched

He gives me chills and makes my heart flutter

Hanging on and never letting go

Love overflowing like a tidal wave

Day by day the intensity grows

It's only him that my heart and body craves

Chaos

Chaos

Dreams interrupted

Rudely awakened

In the wee hours of the morning

Rounds of gun shots firing

Screams of terror and fear

Constant news horror stories

And witnessing what's not reported

Becoming routine occurrences

Tired of the shootings

Daily robberies

Carjacking realities

Domestic violence

Child abuse and sexual assaults

Hourly murders

When does it end

Never I guess

When do you get numb

To the acts of violence

I simply can't

Violence is a part of my life

That I can never accept

Chaos of different kinds

Shows in every aspect of life

All we can do

Is live life to the fullest

Live like it's our last day

And avoid being center

In a life of chaos

 

Cleansing

FYI-The above pic is NOT me...Its just a random image that I got from a google search

Cleansing

Rain drops saturating

Immersing my pores

Tears escaping my eyes

Renewing my soul

Releasing emotions

Soaked leaves and debris

Squashed under my feet

Embracing the cleansing

 

Breathless

Breathless

Every time you walk into a room, I feel you

I feel the strength of our hearts pursuit

When I close my eyes, you are on my mind

Feelings take over, chills run up and down my spine

Yearning to feel you deep inside

Wanting to feel our passions collide

Craving to feel your kisses caressing me

From head to toe, setting me free

The depths of these feelings my hearts confessed

Thoughts of you leave me completely breathless....

 

Isolated

Isolated

Isolated in my own mind

My own world I drift

Falling into my own darkness

Facing my own demons

Totally alone

Isolated

Just going through the motions of life

In my own fogged daze

Life feeling repetitive

Feeling as I am facing the world on my own

Loneliness and depression takes over

Isolated

Body becoming numb

Wishing time away

Depression controlling thoughts

Nightmares feeling like reality

In my own mind

Isolated

 

Thanks

For all the great comments!  I left Weds after writing that blog.  I have been home sick with a stomach virus.

I hope that everyone has a great weekend!

Not Today

Not Today

I am just not the one today
Everyone needs to just stay out of my way
Not in the mood for nonsense
Trying not to let my mood cause offense
But people stay testing my patience
True my attitude needs some maintenance
Just not feeling ok in any way
Because today is not the day

Dont Bother

Don't Bother

I am getting tired of these guys spittin game

It's all starting to sound the same

Half or more are married or committed

But of course the truth was omitted

Pretending to want more

When it's really only my body they want to explore

Sorry, I am just not that easy

It takes some true effort to please me

And what happened to chivalry

What's up with guys approach, literally

Can I please have some respect

From the door your intentions I can detect

I am really starting to get irritated

When any approach is illustrated

My excuse may be awkward

I truly don't even want to be bothered



Remembering

Remembering

Winds brushing my lips reminding

Heating cold nights

Cooling summer sweats

Quiet in a crowded room

Beams of light in darkness

Teaching the untaught

Smiles replacing emptiness

Kissing tear drops

Loving the unlovable

Remembering his love



Indecisive

Indecisive

I want what I want and now

Even when I am not sure how

Patience is something I am not good at

Impulsiveness is something I combat

I go with the flow of the moment

Loneliness has been an adjustment

In trying to find the perfect match

There are feelings that attach

Been back and forth a few times

To see which light shines

The brightest in realities eyes

Over and over I revise

In the end I just want something real

I want true love to reveal

But I don't trust my decision's

Not sure if this is what I envisioned

Trying to calm the apprehensive

And no longer be so indecisive

 

Irresistible

Irresistible Love-Hessam

Irresistible

Not a moment goes by

That my body doesn't crave

The way our tongues tie

Tasting each second memory saved

Soft kisses on my neck and lips

I cant even pretend to resist

Pure love sips

Drunken passion twisted

Tingling sensation

Floating high

Loves creation

Nothing denied

Everything kissable

Ecstasy irresistible

 

Surreal

Surreal

It's a known that women love stronger than men

We stay in search of true love

Wanting that one man to love us to no end

Giving us everything our heart is in search of

We dont take in account real life

No man or woman is perfect

We are too caught up in being his wife

That our feelings misdirect

We have to learn to love the man for who he truly is

And not what we want him to be

Why do we have to investigate in belongings of his

Why do we look for a guarantee

We need to be spending time making sure personalities fit

Seeing if everything about him we can love

The signs are there from the begining but our blinders omit

Does the good in him stand above

Enjoy time spent and stop looking for secrets to reveal

Stop searching for a love thats perfect and surreal

Good Morning All!  I truly try not to visit blogs before I write whatever I am going to write because they influence my topics.  But this morning I read Traci Lavette's blog (<----Click to check out her post) and read about women wanting men to commit.  Check it out.  But this is where this poem was born.  I am guilty of all of the things above and maybe needed this reminder myself...I hope you enjoy...

Confined

Confined

Heart pounding rapidly

Stomach tossing and turning

Body heat rising

A lump forming in my throat

Words escape my mind

Stuck on the edge of my tongue

Not able to release

By simply speaking

Revealing inner meaning

Confessing true love

For now these words remain confined

Until the time is right

Or maybe never to be spoken

Your Song-Guest Poet-Fallyn

Your Song

Written by: Fallyn Schonthaler

A look across the room, an innocent compliment

A chance to talk alone, attraction is imminent

Casual touch, intense flirtation

Everything fades out

Loss of concentration

An embrace, a kiss, your lips electricity

My body aches to react, but this is full of complexity

My heart wants to love; my body to lust

If this feelings grows stronger, I just may combust

I dont want to give in, but how can I trust

Your eyes always warm, your smile is mine

Your love keeps me strong, a feeling devine

To be with you in every way, I hate to prolong

Because in my heart I know, to you I'll always belong

When I'm with you my soul sings your song

Emotions

Emotions

It takes a special man to love me

My emotions are over the top to the thousandth degree

It doesnt take much for me to get in my feelings

My heart still needs healing

I need a man who is willing to comfort

My insecurities to avert

Someone who has no problem with reassurance

And doesnt see my emotions as a hinderance

Because along with strong emotions

Comes loyalty and devotion

When you truly love me

You have to love all of me

 

All or Nothing

All or Nothing

You don't really want to hear

The words that caused my tears

Or know the reason my heart aches

My emotions you don't want to partake

My fears and doubts you don't care to ease

Once that door is closed, barricading is my expertise

I can't lock away only half of my heart

This will cause no more feelings to depart

Now I will keep all within

Things will never again be like they've been

If I can no longer release

Denying a part of me just to appease

Accept me for me

This is my final plea

Or it's leading to our downfall

It's all or nothing at all

Ignored

Ignored

Taking it one day at a time

Feelings not exactly sublime

Life is so reptetitive and routine

And nothing in between

No joys of fulfillment

No love instilled

I feel like I am battling this world alone

While situations continue to be thrown

Feelings of neglect

Sort of like a disconnect

Body becoming numb

Not sure if what I want will ever come

Or if it even truly exists

Loneliness persists

Feeling if I die tomorrow

There will be no tears of sorrow

Everyone will live thier lives as normal

Why do my emotions have to be abnormal

Why do I care so much

Sometimes my heart needs to be touched

I get insecure and need reminding

Mind games unwinding

Is it wrong to want to feel love seeping my pores

For my feelings to be nurtured and not ignored

Homeless

Homeless

It all started when my marriage crumbled into ashes
My life went crashing

I had no idea what was about to transpire
Distress got me fired

Life turning upside down
So called friends are nowhere to be found

Had to make the hardest decison
Sending my children to daddy was more than I could envision

Endured unimaginable affliction
Starting all from the first eviction

Living place to place was not where they needed to be
Sleeping and eating daily was not a guarantee

No one showed me compassion
Generosity only came in rations

Times got desperate
Keeping mind and body seperate

As I did things I never thought I could do
Putting myself in situations I wish no one had to Ever go through

I learned no one truly cares
Except the Man above, who I send my tearful prayers

Had to learn how to humble myself and set my pride aside
Having faith that He will always provide

All along He heard my silent plea
After I learned my lessons He started blessing me

Sending me in the direction I needed to succeed
Gaining the strength to proceed

He carried me through the horrors of the streets
My fears I have no choice but to defeat

Missing Your Love

Random art borrowed from the internet

Missing Your Love

It's the soft, slow kisses on my neck I miss

Sending me into a total state of bliss

Making love felt like we were the only two in existence

Continuously pleasing me with strong persistence

Watching the sun set with the moonlight reflecting off of the waves

Its only you I endlessly crave

Driving hours with strong anticipation

To relieve all of my sexual frustration

Just being in your presence

Feeling your essence

Was all I ever needed

But my insecurities interceded

Being unable to trust I ruined "us"

And any chances we had of success

But I can't stop feeling the pain

Now only missing your touch remains

Missing the sound of your voice

The way you made my heart rejoice

Inside and out the way you made me feel

My true feelings I can no longer conceal

I am missing your love

And the lack thereof