Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Stolen Innocence

I was a virgin, but you stole my substance
Scared, I ly there in silence
Separating my mind, far away from the physical
Mind escaping into the illogical
Not sure what to do or how to feel
Within fears I conceal
Years and years of pain is locked within
Still not able to deal with your sins
These constant fears needs to be released
Learning to regain my confidence at least
Followed now by years of accepting abuse
Denying an inner truce
Time doesn’t make dealing any easier
But the burden continues to get heavier
Lost, loosing all grips of defense
You have just stolen my innocence

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4 comments:

heavealie said...

well portrayed dark emotions.i always admire those people who venture into the darker sides of life in their writing!!this situation of a girl losing her innocence in whatever unnamed circumstances was well written.rape is like one of those things from which overcoming is a big thing!!the scars remain even after years in their minds and i think its just impossible to revert back to the life before this situation!!courage and to stand tall is the greatest thing that one can do and never lose hope always fight back!!well written poem!!keep writing!!

JStar said...

Thanks so much Heavealie! This was the most painful poem I have written. I couldnt get as detailed as I wanted. But I am in the process of trying to release this things that eat at my flesh constantly. This poem is years old, and you were the first to ever comment. I hope my pain can ease someone else's pain...

heavealie said...

i have written two poems on this subject "I'm a rape victim"-first part shows like your poem innocence lost,broken down,destroyed."and so they shall rise"-depicting every women as angels i have turned the situation.very few poets are left and the once who don't poems and just read according to me are unable to get the true meaning behind the poems!!poems are complicated 10 different readers-10 different thoughts about the poem.its like the meaning changes from person to person.this poem should have got a lot more comments which it deserved.sometimes even the best of our works just slip through the cracks!!keep writing!!

JStar said...

Thanks Heavealie, yes my most painful are the ones that people dont comments on for various reasons. But that doesnt stop me from speaking my truths even if they hurt. I will check more of your poetry out :) Cant wait...