Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Real Happiness

Wishing there was something in my life REAL
Tired of the way I constantly feel

Never knowing what it feels like to be loved back
Always giving my all, but getting the same return is where I lack

When will I get back even half of what I give
Just heartache is what I constantly relive

I am the truest person you will ever meet
Why am I being given so much deceit

Why do I keep meeting the same type of people
With this I neal down at the steeple

Pray to God to change my life for the better
Writing down all of my feelings to the letter

Tired of being sick and tired
Stressing over what has transpired

I know real happiness has to be in store
I just can’t take life like this anymore

I deserve so much more
Pain and misery have been implored

I know my true happiness can only come from within
God is the only one else I can truly depend

Waiting for God to continue to bless
With TRUE and uplifting HAPPINESS…

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Liam said...

Ah yes, why can't people love us back the way we want them to?

In that question there is the answer, well at least the beginning of the answer

Tell me if you can spot it.

Tee aka The Diva's Thoughts said...

Oh my goodness girl I could have written this myself.

Lady Dee said...

I know how you feel. I've been there. Made me flash back.

Ms. Butterfly said...

...and bless you he shall. This is beautiful, I feel the pain & hope.

JStar said...

Yes Liam, the answer to my question is within. It gave a resolution. See I like happy ending stories too :) But sometimes (in my other poems) you are so clouded by the pain that he cant see through the clouds to even see the rainbow waiting ahead.

Tee, I think we all get to the point when we are tired of the crap we get out of life and relationships and want something real and more natural, because we are looking at the wrong places and seeing the good in people isnt enough to change who they are. Personalities have to fit.

Lady Dee, yes my problem now is that I have real people that want something real but I am too scared to give my heart again.

Ms Butterfly,Yes He shall :) Its just that the devil keep eating at my heart and working overtime on me, playing mind games. Its like as soon as I my baptismal was over everything went crazy. But I am strong enough to break out of the influences and make my goals a reality.