Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Addiction

Ok, this is also something from this decade that I am healing from so this is my second post today...With this poem.  This started the downward spiral in my life...Then the Homelessness and I will follow with my other deep scar next...

I will post somethign my girl Tiff just sent me :)

The worst thing is holding on to someone who doesn't want to be held on to. Don't fall for someone unless they're willing to catch you. The thing about falling in love is that if you do it right, you'll never hit the ground. Life is too short to be anything but happy. So kiss slowly. Love deeply. Forgive quickly. Take chances & never have regrets. Forget the past but remember what it taught you. Sometimes, you just have to smile, pretend everything's okay, hold back the tears and walk away. If you want to see the rainbow you must go through the rain. If you want TRUE LOVE you must go through the pain. Women were made from a man's rib, not from his head to be superior, not from his feet to be walked on, but from his side to be equal, from under the arm to be protected, and from next to the heart to be loved.

Mind focused on one thing only
While your wife is at home sick of being lonely

All responsibilities are out the door
Her cries you again ignore

You will do whatever you have to do
Any lies you can construe

Nothing or no one else is more essential
Losing all self worth and potential

Stealing the kids toys and bikes
Hurting her with each continuous strike

Selling your soul with each puff of the pipe
Polluting your mind with each line you swipe

Either death or prison awaits
Only God can determine your fate

Prison takes you away from everyone
The pain you have caused cannot be undone

Now you have taken a life in sorrow
All your dreams and hopes of tomorrow

Will be lived behind those bars
Your family will continue to feel the scars

Your addiction left behind
Memories of torture to remind

Pain endured will last a lifetime
You’re not the only one paying for your crime

You’re addiction affected everyone around you
And broke the hearts of the one’s who truly love you

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2 comments:

Secretia said...

My familiarity with this runs deep, we have lost 2 family members from addictions, I am with you in spirit here.

Secretia

JStar said...

Thanks Secretia, yes, I think this is in every family or has touched everyone in some kinda way...I dealt with this from aunts and uncle, then in my last marriage...I was an enabler for years until I just couldnt take it no more...I had to get out and not look back...