Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Feeling Love

I am very confusing and emotional
But my love to the fullest is purely unconditional

If you can see past my inner fears
Look deeper inside, things aren’t always as they appear

Trust is something I still have a hard time believing in
Still feeling so much pain within

Never thinking I was good enough to be loved in return
Loving me is something I had to relearn

Allowing someone in my heart again
Brings up fears that are hard to explain

Just wrap your arms around me and hold on tight
At times I may need reassurance that everything is alright

Be patient as I learn how to love once more
While our love to the fullest we explore

Your love to me almost seems unreal
Assist me while I am learning to feel

© copyright Tue Aug 04 17:55:19 UTC 2009 - All Rights Reserved

19 comments:

Elizabeth said...

:) love it! great choice of words.

Gregorio Martino said...

Remember that song....The first cut is the deepest. It is so true. It is hard to love again after you have been hurt but in the end it is worth it.

JStar said...

Thanks Elizabeth :)

Yea, I hope so Gregorio....

Liam said...

I don't know if the two things are related but now that you're writing is so upbeat it seems like you're getting more comments.

JStar said...

That is so very true Liam :) I also have new followers too...I am gonna miss you soooo much **crying**

Secretia said...

You write such beautiful romantic things!

Secretia

JStar said...

Thanks Secretia, I am so glad that you enjoy :)

25champ said...

Just the fact that you are willing to right ur wrongs says alot to me. That's a sign of growth and it will definetly help you in your journey. ur man will eventually come around just remain patient as he did when pursuing you. U are definelty in my prayers. Blessed Day!

JStar said...

Thanks a lot 25Champ! I sure hope so tho :( Some days I feel like my efforts are working and some days I dont...I guess patience is the key...I am trying my best but my mind does play tricks on me. He pursued me for 7 years prior to us hooking up, so yea I guess I do owe him the same in return. I just hope he can look past my past mistakes and know that my heart is true...I guess only time can tell...

Don said...

i've entered this realm a few times myself; looking at what if i get my heartbroken opposed to what if she treats me like no other. i had to stop thinking this way cause i quickly realized how all i was doing was missing out!

it's funny how just from reading your poetry and comments i can now feel the tension building between you and your guy. ha.

JStar said...

Oh so true Don...I was def missing out...and possibly pushed him away... :( There is really no tension between him and I...I am just not getting the reassurance I need to set my heart at ease...but he is doing it intentionally...Trying to see how I react when I am sweating :) So I am trying to hold tight and show patience...That has always been my weakness...

Meagan said...

JStar: You've witnessed by my words what can happen if you don't start from within. Love is a good thing if it's right. If you love yourself unconditionally love will surround you, clearly/unselfishly. Above all, be true to yourself, and if you cannot put your heart in it, take yourself out of it.

Your words spoken, expressed like the true poet you are.

Meagan

AVY said...

I think all women are confusing, no? That's why men are so confused by us, and that's why it's so hard to make any relationship work.

Kate said...

Good choice of words - very relatable.

Kate x

JStar said...

Meagan, you are so right...Thats something that I am learning how to do again...Love myself...

Very acurate Avy! Thanks for gracing my blog :) I am trying now to overcome my fears so that it doesnt block my blessings...

Thanks Kate! Thanks for also checking my blog out :) I am glad that you could relate!

Organic Meatbag said...

wow...that's hot!!

Traci Lavette said...

You said in 'Beauty', that "Choosing not to settle for less than I deserve
My full heart I have chosen to reserve". Since you have identified him as worthy enough, you gotta let go, J and let him in. Doesn't seem like you'll regret it. If you have recognized it as love, then it probably is. Your heart is too guarded to not know it at this point.

All your followers are here to catch you if you fall - though I don't think that will be the case.

::Hugs::

JStar said...

:) Thanks Traci...I am really trying now...I guess only time will tell if it works...Just made so many mistakes that I didnt trust myself...

JStar said...

Thanks Organic