Friday, December 18, 2009

Mirror

As I look in the mirror at my reflection
I can only see my imperfections

Trying hard to point out the good within me
Discovering what others can clearly see

Searching my soul for my purpose here
Wanting my fears to just disappear

Gaining strength to fulfill my goals
Desiring again to feel complete and whole

Seeking out in my life what’s missing
Pushing past my thoughts constantly reminiscing

Overlooking nightmares haunting
Attempting to cease the persistent taunting

Wondering how my experiences can benefit others
Hoping my joy and pain can help another

Spreading my life through my words
Speaking my truths that were previously unheard

Looking past my physical appearance
Ignoring the usual interference

Exploring all possible resolutions
Not focusing on any other conclusions

Making my place in this universe
Sending all negative energy into reverse

My destination route is now clearer
Double checking my reflection in the mirror

© copyright Wed Oct 14 7:51:00 UTC 2009 - All Rights Reserved

24 comments:

Secretia said...

If you are able to reverse negative energy after looking in the mirror, you are a lucky person. That is wonderful. I'll work on doing just that.

Secretia

JStar said...

LOL...I know right Secretia....You can reverse negative energy by reconizing it and getting the courage to do so...Looking in a mirror gives you a good look at yourself...and helps me make the hard decisons in life...

Gregorio Martino said...

I think you already have yoru place in the universe. You just need to discover it.

JStar said...

So true Gregorio...Thats what I am working on as we speak...

25champ said...

Once you are able to look directly at yourself for change, progress is right around the corner. I'm always soul searching.

Brian Miller said...

very introspective....i have a few friends that have become my mirror...they help me see beyond the pale reflection i sometimes see in myself...

Liam said...

Well if you're finding it hard to find the good things in yourself just ask me I have a long list of them.

JStar said...

Most def 25Champ...My Mirror in this one was the metaphor for soul searching :)

Yes, friends are the best mirror...

JStar said...

Thanks Brian, I see that you are a new follower :) I will check you out!

Awwww Liam...You are by far my favorite blogger :)

Traci Lavette said...

JStar...

That was "beautiful", girl. For real. And I could so completely relate to what you were saying. ALL OF IT.

My question to you:
Who initially stole this from you and at what point in your life? "Desiring again to feel complete and whole".

Mine was a result of an asshole of a stepfather and it kind of just transferred into my adult life. I struggle with it everyday, but learning to not give it as much energy as I once did...

JStar said...

Traci, It was my father who stole it from me when I was 12/13...I am still learning how to deal with this...Haunted me ever since...Nightmares and all that...Then man after man I have dealt with since has had their own contributes...

Traci Lavette said...

JStar,

I feel your pain. That's so messed up - it happened at the same time in my life too. My mom stayed with him through the impressionable years too so it was bad. My own father died when I was 3 so he was really the first man I knew. She eventually left, but the damage was done...

The men that followed...I understand that too and the need for acceptance and all that. It's a tangled web they weaved for us, huh? I know you're making strides now though since you have girls. I rooting for you!

JStar said...

Thanks so much Traci...Yea that really hard to go thru...esp at that age...Messes our lives/head...But we pick it up and get back on track, thats all we can do...

JStar said...

Hence my poem called "Burden" under my Pain theme...

RoByn LaTice said...

This is beatiful! I feel this...My sisters/friends serve as my mirror now a days. it's nice to have them to point out all the good I cant find to save my life. Nice peice

MzAuNatural-Beauty said...

I can completely relate to this poem. It's often times very hard for people to see in them what others see so clearly.
I love the emotion in this piece, to me that's what makes a good poem, a poem with feeling and truth <3

G-Man said...

Wow, JStar.
You have a beautiful way with expression...

Indigo said...

But first I have to find the courage to look in the mirror.. only then can I decide my fate

The Write Girl said...

I think it's an amazing and brave excercise. May you find all the wonderful qualities that is you JStar.

* ! zodiac ! * said...

this was absolutely beautiful..i am deeply moved by your words

E's said...

That first line was dead on, because it's easy to see the imperfections first, but then the poem gets brighter...which is true too. Because at some point you step back and say, "Damn, I'm a handsome MF"

Great poem.

Don said...

ignoring the usual interference, this line speaks volumes. cause i have to believe that in each and every thing we attempt, full steam ahead, there is always that roadblock which never fails to appear.

once a person has the mental aspect completely solved...it's on!

Kate said...

This was a really beautiful post

Kate xx

JStar said...

Yes Robyn, Others see what you cant see...

Thanks MzAuNatural!!

Thanks GMan!

So right Indigo...We try to avoid it as much as possible...

Thanks Write Girl! I wish the same for you :)

:)@Zodiac

I know thats right E!!!

I love your input Don!!

Thanks Kate!