Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Wasted

Wasted

Your sorrows are forgotten but still remain
Currently not driving you insane

Deep within they are bleeding
Giving power while misleading

Intoxicating your inner thoughts
Leaving you completely distraught

Even more confused
Ego continues to bruise

Drink after drink
Mind and heart no longer in sync

Puffing and passing
Memories still harrasing

Too blasted to even care anymore
Feelings totally being ignored

Now able to sleep without nightmares
Victory declares

One more day concluded
Horros eluded

But still slowly eating at your flesh
New problems continue to manifest

Nothing to look forward to
To the bottom of the bottle you subdue

Awake and start the routine again
Now your sanity depends

On these chemicals you're using to set free
Still trashed with debris

Sobriety never again tasted
Lifeless life remains wasted

7 comments:

25champ said...

Sad situation. Alcoholism is a disease and people will go to the extremes once the liquor takes over. U did the right thing. Tough love is all you can offer at this point. Great Post! check out Mind Games when you get a chance.
http://25champ-lovestoned.blogspot.com/?spref=tw

järnebrand said...

I am so sorry. I believe you did the right thing, too. You are not his parent. He's your brother, and you love him, but he needs help. I think he needs to understand he needs help, in order to reach out for help. It's tough. Maybe if you'd contact Al Anon they could give you a few pointers on how to deal with this. Not that you have any obligation to deal with his problems, but you still might want to try to.
Love and hugs/ Jo.

Brian Miller said...

lifeless life about summs it up...i agree you did the right thing and it puts the ball in his court as far as what he does next...

Just telling it like it is said...

Sending you some hugs hun...
nursing note: I was taught in school that alcoholics are actually allergic to alcohol..I don't know if that helps but save your self and your children no on can fault you for that for sure!

Anonymous said...

My heart reaches out to you, Jennifer. I have a brother who has problems too.

Secretia

Beauty in Rare Form said...

Wow, J...that's sad. I am sorry for your "loss". So, the intervention failed which means he is not quite ready to accept that he needs help. I hope he comes to the realization soon so that the family can begin to heal - individually, and collectively. That is important.

You mentioned something about "nightmares". Is there something deeper going on? My ex that commited suicide, was drinking a lot before he made the decision to take his own life. Looking back, I think it would be pretty safe to say that he was a functioning alcoholic. But Iraq is what did him in though, which is why I asked if there was something deeper going on with your brother. Not my business...just wondering.

I hope it gets better soon.

Dulçe ♥ said...

Oh Isn't it great to be able to look at the bright side of life even if only once in a blue moon!!

I am so happy for YOU!

Hugs dear J!