Thanks

For all the great comments!  I left Weds after writing that blog.  I have been home sick with a stomach virus.

I hope that everyone has a great weekend!

Not Today

Not Today

I am just not the one today
Everyone needs to just stay out of my way
Not in the mood for nonsense
Trying not to let my mood cause offense
But people stay testing my patience
True my attitude needs some maintenance
Just not feeling ok in any way
Because today is not the day

Dont Bother

Don't Bother

I am getting tired of these guys spittin game

It's all starting to sound the same

Half or more are married or committed

But of course the truth was omitted

Pretending to want more

When it's really only my body they want to explore

Sorry, I am just not that easy

It takes some true effort to please me

And what happened to chivalry

What's up with guys approach, literally

Can I please have some respect

From the door your intentions I can detect

I am really starting to get irritated

When any approach is illustrated

My excuse may be awkward

I truly don't even want to be bothered



Remembering

Remembering

Winds brushing my lips reminding

Heating cold nights

Cooling summer sweats

Quiet in a crowded room

Beams of light in darkness

Teaching the untaught

Smiles replacing emptiness

Kissing tear drops

Loving the unlovable

Remembering his love



Indecisive

Indecisive

I want what I want and now

Even when I am not sure how

Patience is something I am not good at

Impulsiveness is something I combat

I go with the flow of the moment

Loneliness has been an adjustment

In trying to find the perfect match

There are feelings that attach

Been back and forth a few times

To see which light shines

The brightest in realities eyes

Over and over I revise

In the end I just want something real

I want true love to reveal

But I don't trust my decision's

Not sure if this is what I envisioned

Trying to calm the apprehensive

And no longer be so indecisive

 

Irresistible

Irresistible Love-Hessam

Irresistible

Not a moment goes by

That my body doesn't crave

The way our tongues tie

Tasting each second memory saved

Soft kisses on my neck and lips

I cant even pretend to resist

Pure love sips

Drunken passion twisted

Tingling sensation

Floating high

Loves creation

Nothing denied

Everything kissable

Ecstasy irresistible

 

Surreal

Surreal

It's a known that women love stronger than men

We stay in search of true love

Wanting that one man to love us to no end

Giving us everything our heart is in search of

We dont take in account real life

No man or woman is perfect

We are too caught up in being his wife

That our feelings misdirect

We have to learn to love the man for who he truly is

And not what we want him to be

Why do we have to investigate in belongings of his

Why do we look for a guarantee

We need to be spending time making sure personalities fit

Seeing if everything about him we can love

The signs are there from the begining but our blinders omit

Does the good in him stand above

Enjoy time spent and stop looking for secrets to reveal

Stop searching for a love thats perfect and surreal

Good Morning All!  I truly try not to visit blogs before I write whatever I am going to write because they influence my topics.  But this morning I read Traci Lavette's blog (<----Click to check out her post) and read about women wanting men to commit.  Check it out.  But this is where this poem was born.  I am guilty of all of the things above and maybe needed this reminder myself...I hope you enjoy...

Confined

Confined

Heart pounding rapidly

Stomach tossing and turning

Body heat rising

A lump forming in my throat

Words escape my mind

Stuck on the edge of my tongue

Not able to release

By simply speaking

Revealing inner meaning

Confessing true love

For now these words remain confined

Until the time is right

Or maybe never to be spoken

Your Song-Guest Poet-Fallyn

Your Song

Written by: Fallyn Schonthaler

A look across the room, an innocent compliment

A chance to talk alone, attraction is imminent

Casual touch, intense flirtation

Everything fades out

Loss of concentration

An embrace, a kiss, your lips electricity

My body aches to react, but this is full of complexity

My heart wants to love; my body to lust

If this feelings grows stronger, I just may combust

I dont want to give in, but how can I trust

Your eyes always warm, your smile is mine

Your love keeps me strong, a feeling devine

To be with you in every way, I hate to prolong

Because in my heart I know, to you I'll always belong

When I'm with you my soul sings your song

Emotions

Emotions

It takes a special man to love me

My emotions are over the top to the thousandth degree

It doesnt take much for me to get in my feelings

My heart still needs healing

I need a man who is willing to comfort

My insecurities to avert

Someone who has no problem with reassurance

And doesnt see my emotions as a hinderance

Because along with strong emotions

Comes loyalty and devotion

When you truly love me

You have to love all of me

 

All or Nothing

All or Nothing

You don't really want to hear

The words that caused my tears

Or know the reason my heart aches

My emotions you don't want to partake

My fears and doubts you don't care to ease

Once that door is closed, barricading is my expertise

I can't lock away only half of my heart

This will cause no more feelings to depart

Now I will keep all within

Things will never again be like they've been

If I can no longer release

Denying a part of me just to appease

Accept me for me

This is my final plea

Or it's leading to our downfall

It's all or nothing at all

Ignored

Ignored

Taking it one day at a time

Feelings not exactly sublime

Life is so reptetitive and routine

And nothing in between

No joys of fulfillment

No love instilled

I feel like I am battling this world alone

While situations continue to be thrown

Feelings of neglect

Sort of like a disconnect

Body becoming numb

Not sure if what I want will ever come

Or if it even truly exists

Loneliness persists

Feeling if I die tomorrow

There will be no tears of sorrow

Everyone will live thier lives as normal

Why do my emotions have to be abnormal

Why do I care so much

Sometimes my heart needs to be touched

I get insecure and need reminding

Mind games unwinding

Is it wrong to want to feel love seeping my pores

For my feelings to be nurtured and not ignored

Homeless

Homeless

It all started when my marriage crumbled into ashes
My life went crashing

I had no idea what was about to transpire
Distress got me fired

Life turning upside down
So called friends are nowhere to be found

Had to make the hardest decison
Sending my children to daddy was more than I could envision

Endured unimaginable affliction
Starting all from the first eviction

Living place to place was not where they needed to be
Sleeping and eating daily was not a guarantee

No one showed me compassion
Generosity only came in rations

Times got desperate
Keeping mind and body seperate

As I did things I never thought I could do
Putting myself in situations I wish no one had to Ever go through

I learned no one truly cares
Except the Man above, who I send my tearful prayers

Had to learn how to humble myself and set my pride aside
Having faith that He will always provide

All along He heard my silent plea
After I learned my lessons He started blessing me

Sending me in the direction I needed to succeed
Gaining the strength to proceed

He carried me through the horrors of the streets
My fears I have no choice but to defeat

Missing Your Love

Random art borrowed from the internet

Missing Your Love

It's the soft, slow kisses on my neck I miss

Sending me into a total state of bliss

Making love felt like we were the only two in existence

Continuously pleasing me with strong persistence

Watching the sun set with the moonlight reflecting off of the waves

Its only you I endlessly crave

Driving hours with strong anticipation

To relieve all of my sexual frustration

Just being in your presence

Feeling your essence

Was all I ever needed

But my insecurities interceded

Being unable to trust I ruined "us"

And any chances we had of success

But I can't stop feeling the pain

Now only missing your touch remains

Missing the sound of your voice

The way you made my heart rejoice

Inside and out the way you made me feel

My true feelings I can no longer conceal

I am missing your love

And the lack thereof

Rain

Random picture taken from a google search

Rain

Tear drops staining my cheeks

Just hearing the words as he speaks

He is giving up and cant take no more

My issues he can no longer ignore

I know I am not easy to love

My insecurities stood way above

I constantly pushed him away

Not sure if he was to betray

I just couldnt let him in

I didnt even allow us to begin

The truth was that he already had my heart

From the very start

I didnt want him to take advantage

I dont know how I am going to manage

No desire to move on

Feeling neglected and withdrawn

I love him more than I could show

Now he will never know

Freeing myself of this inner pain

My soul is cleansing with each drop of rain

 

Speak

Speak

Dear Lord,

I put my life into your hands

Even if I don't understand

Only you know what's best for me

And with faith my heart agrees

I am at a crossroad in my life

Two men want me to be thier wife

And I am not sure which way to turn

Your guidance I yearn

My financial situation is not quite right

I am in desperate need of your insight

I want to be able to provide

At home where my children reside

I desire to be the best person I can be

And live my future as you foresee

Please shine your light

And give me a line of sight

Now I pray and listen for your voice

In your name I rejoice

I know you will give me all I seek

To my heart you speak

 

Someone

Dali Salvador

Someone

I want someone unconditionally...

Someone that tells and shows me how special I am to them

Someone that will make sure I am ok before he is worried about him

Someone who unconditionally loves me for me

Someone who encourages me to be everything I can be

Someone who for no reason brings me flowers

Someone who believes in unconditional love and its true powers

Someone who listens and truly cares how I feel

Someone who is man enough to tell me no

Someone who is secure enough to allow his love to clearly show

Someone who will treat me like a woman should

Someone who will jump hoops to do all he could

Someone taht makes you want to rush home to

Someone nightly to make love to

Someone to hold me at night

Someone who no longer wants to argue and fight

Someone who would never put his hands on me

Someone who wouldnt dream of cheating and only desires me

Someone that cant imagine thier life without me

Someone who is prepared to stand on bended knee

Does this man exist?

Is this too much to ask?

I am prepared to give the same in return and then some...

 

His Battle

His Battle

Let go and your joy will be complete

Dont just fall in defeat

Your troubles make you stronger

Dont hold onto the guilt any longer

Repent your sins

And your peace will begin

Never give up hope

Whatever it is, you CAN cope

Set your mind at ease

Dont question God's expertise

Stay in fear of His reign

Allow His glory to attain

And His knowledge to excite

Realize that its just not your battle to fight

This is a repost...I needed this reminder today...I hope that everyone has a great weekend.  I will be back on Tuesday...

Sincere

Monet's Garden

Sincere

You deserve more than I have given

Time and time you have forgiven

My doubt and fears

When my insecurities interfered

I constantly ran from the inevitable

My past mistakes were no longer deniable

But you always loved me for me regardless

Even when my love I attempted to suppress

But I can no longer deny

Never again say goodbye

My loyalty I can guarantee

I love you with everything thats in me

My heart is no longer broken

Words can no longer be spoken

My actions will show clear

My heart is truly sincere

Step Up

Step Up

It's time to step up or walk away

No longer being led astray

My desires aren't being met

My needs you've chose to neglect

Luckily my heart isn't in too deep

But please don't sleep

Because I do have options

So take this as a word of caution

What you won't do someone else will

Your place can be easily filled

It's now or never

I am not going to wait forever

The above butterfly pictures represent me possibly having to fly away if need be.  Flying to my destiny...

Action

Pablo Picasso-Sleeping Woman

Action

Actions speak louder than words

My vision is no longer blurred

By your empty promises

Loneliness I can no longer harness

With affections I desire

The level I want is so much higher

More than you are able to give it seems

To you it feels like I am going to extremes

But I dont think what I am asking is too much

Wanting more than just your touch

Needing more of you

Than this distant view

Not sure how much longer I can wait

My patience is about to deflate

If you truly love me like you say you do

Your actions need to make their debut

I am blown that half of the blogs I follow are now blocked by my security wall.  I would love to read about Senorita's explorations in Paris, and I miss my Man Five Fridays.  Not to mention I cant get onto Ms Downlow's blog anymore and she was the first blog I ever followed.  So if you are no longer getting comments from me, I probaly cant even get onto your blog anymore :(

Happy Birthday Dulce-Friday 55

Happy Birthday Dulce

A fellow poet who wears her heart on her sleeve
Sharing love that is so beautiful that you cant not believe

We share in the feelings she displays
As we explore each phrase

Grabbing our attention
Making our own comprehension

Sharing parts of her
Life happenings that occur

Touching each person differently
Making relations incidentally

*Click on Dulce's name to share in her poetry, I guranatee you will be happy that you became aquainted!

*Friday 55 is a theme brought to us by GMan.  click his name and check out the details

My Heart

My Heart

I can be crazy and far from perfect

At times my flirtatious nature can be suspect

I overanalyze everything and am extra emotional

And my reactions are usually irrational

Sometimes I dont feel like cleaning
And my attitude is not always pleasing
My finances and debt are overwhelming
And my stresses can be overbearing
Even though I am carrying baggage

My heart is bigger than the average

My love is true and sincere

And will never disappear

I give you an invitation into my life to be a part

All I have to offer is the love in my heart

True Importance

True Importance

We are allowing life to take over

Defining whats urgent

Instead of prioritizing

For whats really important

Lifes petty obligations

Really dont matter

Why stress over the unimportant

Take time to enjoy life

Live out your purpose in life

Take the gifts that God has given

And use them for thier true purpose

Bless others just as He has blessed you

Even when we dont understand

Obey and have faith in His plan

Even if we dont like it

We are exactly where we are supposed to be

Enjoy this moment in time

Savor the beauty and blessings in front of us

Learn the lessons provided

Allow your home to be your sanctuary

Block out the troubles of the world

Make time for what truly important

Take time to reflect

Listen and hear His instructions

Dont allow life to cloud your hearing

Envision the path that has been provided

Faith

Faith

Why do we worry and stress

Instead of awaiting God to Bless

We make choices that have consequences

Blaming Him for our mistakes is our greatest offense

Why do we fight against His will

Instead of trusting His Word to instill

Faith that everything will work out just as its supposed to

And not always when and how we want it to

We need to learn how to let go

And realize that He is the One that is in control

All He asks for is our love and obedience

Pray at the altar with faith and confidence

Live out our purpose here in this life

And He guarantees us eternal life

With inner peace and unconditional love

Just build a personal relationship with God above

Deep

Monet-Giverny

Deep

My love for you runs deep within my soul

My worries and fears, your love continues to console

We have been through our share of adversities

And overcome all of our uncertainties

No longer plauged by doubt

Your love I never want to live without

 

Mindless

Random art via internet-Not sure who did this work but its cool :)

Mindless

Mindless state of mind

Natural instincts redefined

In the seconds he enters my presence

Within my veins I feel his essence

His voice sends chills

His love fulfills

Emptiness that I didnt know existed

Love making revisited

He instinctively knows just where to kiss

Reminding me what I have missed

His touch sends vibes

That no prescription can prescribe

Pure ecstasy runs through my soul

Pleasure if the ultimate goal

He takes to places no man can find

Clocks stop in this moment in time

Words dont give justice to the feelings he introduces

Just with the look in his eyes he instantly seduces

The seconds and hours with him I constantly reminisce

Sending me into a mindless state of bliss

Inner Flame

Monet-Waterloobridge

Inner Flame

Again you made love to me and made my heart skip a beat

With your love felt inside no other man could ever compete

All the love you continue to demonstrate I happily reap

Now as I lay next to you watching you peacefully sleep

Thinking of all the ways I want to please you

Giving to you well deserved happiness that is long over due

What we share is unexplainable with words spoken

You fill the holes in my heart that was once broken

There is no one true definition of our love

The depths you have taken me were undreamed of

I urge to break down my barriers and my whole heart allow you to claim

With only you to share the intensity of this undying inner flame

Forever Young

Forever Young

Dedicated to the life of Andrea Arnold

Our Heavenly Father needed his angel
We can search for reasons from every angle
And still never understand
His ultimate plan
Take comfort that she can no longer feel pain
Eventhough your life will never be the same
Cherish the memories that will never fade
Find that strength that she always displayed
I will always remember her smile
Although I have only known her a short while
She was one of my daughters best friends
The person she could confide and depend
I saw beautiful soul
Mother to mother, I wish I had the words to console
Always remember the laughter and the fun
In our hearts she is forever young

In Love-Friday's 55

Starry Night-Vincent van Gogh

Dedicated to Dulce :) who shares this passion of love that reaches depths others dream of. 

In Love

In love with love

The idea of love

The illustrations of love

The feeling of love

The fullness of love

The comfort of love

The courage of love

The sexiness of love

The sensuality of love

The electricity of love

The enrichment of love

The illusion of love

The "In Love" of love

The crazy thing is I wrote this poem a few months back and have already posted it here...But today friday I got to post it, which I had planned on posting yesterday...but I just so happen to look at the word count...and its exactly 55 words (including the title) and I am JUST realizing it....So I guess it was meant to be today :)  And I truly struggle to fit all I need to say in 55 words when I do them on purpose...This one was a pleasant suprise :)  Shouts out to the infamous G-Man!!!!!

Note: Senorita-I cant get onto your blog anymore at work :( They classified it as "porn" WTF....That just blew me

Prom Pic

This is my oldest daughter at the prom this past prom season...

Discovery

Discovery

Lying in my bed listening to the rain drops

Wishing they would never stop

Not wanting to leave these covers

Hiding and not wanting to be discovered

Enjoying being alone

Everything else can be postponed

Taking personal quality time

Not worrying about dealines

Completely focused on me

And what it is that I need

Actually loving me in totality

Door knocks bring me back to reality

Ignoring everyone else

Only going by my own impulse

Being alone is actually not that bad

No one to get on my nerves and make me mad

Relaxing with everyone out of reach

Listening to my own inner speech

Not depending on anyone's guarantee

Discovering that I do really love me

Awaken

Art by: Monet

Awaken

His touch awakens, as a breath of fresh air

His kiss evokes feelings deep

Way beyond a casual affair

With my heart at ease, comes peaceful sleep

His heart soothes inner fears

His eyes confirm sincerity

Wiping away stains left from trails of tears

Walls tumbling, leaving room for prosperity

His personality completely comforts, emotions ignite

His hands guide in new undiscovered directions

Withstanding disagreements, previews a different light

Willingly demonstrates truth behind affections

His voice fills my ears, profoundly outspoken

Words dont give justice to an unwritten lyric

With him, love prevails the unspoken

His love fully awakens my spirit

Trance

Trance

At work unable to focus on the phone

I'm in my own little zone

Whatever they are talking about is unknown

My mind is in a trance

Focused on last nights romance

I am still feeling your love immersing my pores

My soul kissing yours

The sensual touch of your ecstasy

Bringing reality to our fantasies

Your kisses floating my senses

Naturally your love leaves me defenseless

My hearts pain you completely console

Your love seeping the depths of my heart and soul

My senses redefined and enhanced

Your love locks me in a total trance

Breathless

Claude Monet-Waterlillies

Breathless

Everytime you walk into a room, I feel you

I feel the strength of our hearts pursuit

When I close my eyes, you are on my mind

Feelings take over, chills run up and down my spine

Yearning to feel you deep inside

Wanting to feel our passions fully collide

Craving to feel your kisses caressing me

From head to toe, setting me free

The depths of these feelings my hearts confessed

Thoughts of you leave me completely breathless

 

Strength

Good Morning All!  I am reposting this poem because I have been neglecting everyone from my poetry long enough.  I couldnt come up with anything, so I am resharing this one...I am still not feeling good at all.  I have a feeling that I am getting the flu :(  Maybe from moving and the fact that my air condition works in my new place....Before the air didnt work in the back two bedrooms...I guess after two years of living without air I have to get used to it again...Plus its that time of year for my sinus's to act up :(  Last night I kept waking up in cold sweats then waking up freezing...And I have been wide awake since 3am...I am not really sure when I wrote this one but I suspect earlier this year....This fits with the mood that I am in right now...I have been through hell and back...literally...and my world is changing around me (for the good) and I am scared...terrified to fail again...But I reflect of what all that I have overcame thus far and my strength reminds me that its all going to work out...

Strength

My world is flipping upside down
But I see the pieces of the puzzle falling into place
Listening to the sounds
Of your voice and recognizing your face
Leading me through the fires
Protecting me from harm
No longer living through desires
Not falling for the devils charm
Finding strength within
That I never felt before
You are the only one I can depend
To open closed doors
I never thought possible
Each day no matter the circumstance, I praise your name
And you show miracles that were once impossible
Now, my life will never be the same



And these two ladies right here are the source of my strength....My reason for breathing...The ARE my everything...

Blah Blah Blah

Ok, I am posting this picture for no particular reason at all...Its me and my brothers....My brother to your left hand side with the darker brown hair...The one that looks like my twin...Thats my brother Joe that passed away that I have written about many times here...He passed away July 9th, 1996 of AIDS....This picture was taken almost exactly a year before he passed.  This picture was taken right before he got really sick...Its really one of the last pictures he took, if not the very last one before he got sick...We actually used this picture for his obituary and cut me and my youngest brother out...Look at me now lol...I was rockin that bob now LOL....I was so young, innocent and naive back then....I turned 20 a few months later :)  I sure havent changed much at all...

My Choice

Good Morning All!  My mind is quite scattered so I am suprised I was able to write this in 5 mins...I wanted to write something but had planned on some ramblings today...This poem reflects where my mind is at right now.  I am quite focused on what has to be done...

My Choice

Mind scattered
Disregarding things that once mattered
Finding new direction
Not allowing my mind to be mislead by affection
Choosing my destiny
Maintaining my sanity
Not allowing life to affect my mood
Feelings no longer seclude
Depression no longer has control
Taking back what life has stole
Regaining my own voice
Happiness is my choice

One-Friday's 55

Good Morning All!  I was struggling to write this one so I could post a 55...My mind is just scattered right now...

One

You are the only man I desire
The one that sparks flames to my fire
I breathe your scent and become high
Like a kite floating in the sky
Embracing the comfort of your touch
These feelings I clutch
Deep within my being
While guaranteeing
Pure serenity
Revealing loves identity
Soothing my soul
Becoming one

Rhythm

You evoke feelings I never knew existed
Feelings of happiness
The love I feel flowing through your veins
Bleeds straight into my heart
With a pulsating rhythm
Just waiting to explode
Taking us to higher levels
Of ecstasy and intimacy
To a plateau of our very own
Reaching new heights with every second
Where time doesnt even matter
Nothing else matters anymore
But the feelings being produced
Between the two of us
The creation of
Our own rhythm of love

Hunger

Hungers burning desire
Hearts shooting flames of fire
Sparks of electricity no longer deniable
Constant eruption always reliable
Lightning strikes felt within the soul
Lives brought together with a common goal
Insatiable beams of light
Irresistible to fight
Two hearts connected as one
True love can never be undone
Every emotion explored
But there is always a hunger for more

Kiss

Your kisses make my heart flutter
To where there are no words for my lips to utter
Like a therapeutic healing
Words dont give justice to this feeling
Bringing my body shivering cold chills
Like the world is spinning but I am lying still
Thoughts disappear from my mind
While feelings are redefined
In a total state of bliss
By your gentle, loving kiss

Thoughts

Thoughts of you bring a smile to my face
And warmth to my heart
You are always on my mind

Thoughts of you bring chills to my body
And tingles within
You are always on my mind

Thoughts of you bring butterflies to my stomach
And dizziness to my feet
You are always on my mind

Thoughts of you bring solitude to my mind
And focus to my destiny
You are always on my mind

Thoughts of you provoke feelings never before felt
And at times irrational thoughts
You are always on my mind

Alone

As the sun sets
The loneliness sets in
Lying alone
In this empty bed
Day dreaming
Of what I desire
Knowing for sure
What I dont want
Not settling for less
Than I deserve
With all that said
I am still alone

Storm

Winds gusting ferociously
Debris flying in circles
Rain pounding the pavement
Resembling rivers flowing downhill
Clouds suddenly darken
Lighting striking
Illuminating the sky
The fury is terrifying
Then as quickly as it came
It was gone
The sky brightens
To the most beautiful shade of blue
Robust white clouds
Allowing rays of sunlight through
Calmness arises
As if the fury never took place
Just as life
Throws us storms
The calmness prevails
And washes away yesterday
For today is a new day
We made it through yesterdays storms

Discipleship Graduation-Sistah's Pursuing Purpose

This past sunday was our graduation for our Discipleship Class, Part 1 :)  We took these pics are church following the graduation :)

I wrote two things last night but forgot them at home...I will share 2morrow....

All Grown Up

Look at my babi girls senior pics...I feel soooooo old :)  My Tanaesha is almost a grown woman.  This time next year she will be heading to college.  She wants to be a peditrician, and with her grades scholarships are going to come.  I should type one of her poems but dont have the time right now...

I hope that everyone has a good day

Doubt

Doubt

Doubting myself
Not sure if I am capable
Of loving
Another or myself
I see only my imperfections
How can someone else
Love me if I cant love myself
I am scared to give
Of my heart
And be hurt once more
Am I worthy of true love
Or am I just in love
With the idea of being loved
Am I worthy of someone
Looking past my imperfections
Wanting to heal my pains
Allowing me to cry
Holding me
When the nightmares consume
I desire to be loved
But terrified to let anyone in
I keep running
But I am tired
Tired of doubting

Tonight

You've waited patiently
For me to love you
The way you love me
At first I was scared
To open my heart and be hurt
But the gentle kisses on my neck
Relaxed my spirit
And allowed me to feel
To embrace the feeling of love
Being loved in return
Is the greatest feeling in the world
Its all I have ever wanted
I feel comfortable with you
Everything feels so right
All I ask is for you
To love me for me
And always be true
My love will fulfill
You're every need and desire
For the rest of our lives
I gave you my heart
And all that it entails
Treat it with care
My words were true
When I said that I love you
Because I gave you my heart tonight

Good Morning...I hope that everyone had a good weekend!  I didnt do too much...I hung out with Tanaesha and watched old movies :)  Yesterday I took her shopping and I saw this cute lil purple dress and couldnt resist.  I have NEVER worn a dress other than the two times I said I Do...I have really skinny legs and have always been self consious lol....Other than feeling half naked lol I feel ok today...So I thought i'd share...

I still havent written anything...I dont know...Just havent been inspired...

As you can tell...My favorite color is purple :) I cant resist anything purple in the store....

Myrtle Beach Pics and a tribute to my brother RIP Joe (WOW 14 yrs)

Good Morning All!  Here are a few pics that were taken in Myrtle Beach, I will post more later...Sorry I havent been able to visit anyones blog lately..I have been quite busy at work.

RIP Joe 3/17/71 - 7/9/96

Today is the anniversary of my brothers death.  He is gone but will NEVER be forgotten...I still cant believe its been 14 YEARS...My big brother was my EVERYTHING...He succumed to AIDS at the young age of 26 :(  I still have yet to scan a picture of him :(